Wired Weird

Friday, August 8, 2025

TGIF.  Still have to get through it, but it's Friday.

A weird but pleasant feeling this morning.  I think this is the second time now that I've felt this way, I'll have to scroll back through the last couple months to see if it's the same.  I'm sure I'll do a lousy job of describing it.  I have this pervasive background feeling of fatigue.  It's always there.  It's been particularly noteworthy lately as I deal with these issues.  This morning, for whatever reason, it was not.

That does not mean I was full of pep, because I was not.  But I was able to move about without dragging.  And that was really nice.  As an added bonus the bad knee felt stable for the first time in weeks when I got in and out of the shower and it was able to get up out of chairs smoothly this morning.

It won't last.  It never does.  But it was still a good thing to experience, even if it's a little unsettling.  I do not know what caused it - it wasn't great sleep, my weight is up and I'm bloated.  But okay.

Breakfast:  2 slices smoked cheddar, coffee

Considered not eating anything given the lack of hunger, but decided to stick with the usual.

Later, a pretzel bagel w veggie cream cheese.  It was meh. 

Lunch:  Pep and deluxe pizza slices, a little Coke

Couldn't decide on what to have.  Went with fast.

Dinner:  Qdoba brisket bowl, chips w queso, coke

 Not their finest effort.

Exercise:  Nope.

121.8 

Way Too Much Ugh

Thursday, August 7, 2025

Writing up a bit late.  It was a busy day.

Breakfast:  2 slices smoked cheddar, coffee

Still works.

Lunch:  Wendys 2xJBC single fries Dr. Pepper

Stop.

Dinner:  Small deluxe pizza, 16 oz Two Hearted

Dinner meeting.

Also McD 2x double cheese, a few fries, coke

Way too much.  Ugh.

Exercise:  Nope.

119.0 

The Battle Of The Evenings

Wednesday, August 6, 2025

Once again evenings proved to be hard.  Ate too much, too late.  Too much caffeine ... which should be none after noon.  Found it hard to get to sleep and then I woke up after two hours.  Argh.  Better than usual effort in the recliner, but still, not enough rest.

I guess this morning went okay otherwise.  We'll see about the afternoon.

Breakfast:  2 slices smoked cheddar, coffee

Out of pepper jack.

Lunch:  Double cheeses, fries

Local place.  Good as always but excessive.

Dinner:  BK texas whopper, fries, cheesy tots, Dr Pepper, coke

Ugh. 

Exercise:  Nope

118.0 

Small Encouragements

Tuesday, August 5, 2025

A little more positive this morning.  It doesn't take much.  I had a reasonable dinner last night, didn't overeat.  I had enough pep to take care of a few minor things - did a load of laundry, picked some things up, loaded the dishwasher.  All small mundane tasks that have seemed insurmountable the last few days.  I was a bit faster going up the stairs this morning on the way out too.  So I'm hopeful that if for some reason I do have a clot that it's minor and will resolve itself.  Or if I'm sick that I'm on the road to recovery.  Not nearly as much mucus or coughing today.

Always nice to see a small tick down on the scale, especially when you haven't done anything great.

Breakfast:  2 slices pepper jack, coffee

Again.

Lunch:  Deluxe sub, pepsi

 

Went fountain in order to make it mostly ice, but still .... beetus juice. 

Dinner:  French dip, 12 oz Miller Lite, plus before McD QPC (free) and coke, then later TB supreme box, pepsi

 

Ugh. 

Exercise:  9 holes w cart, no extra walking

116.4 

Answers Not Evident

Monday, August 4, 2025

Not sure if I have a cold or something.  Lots of mucus, productive cough.  Don't feel terrible, mostly just super low energy.  I've been a little worried about the possibility of a blood clot, but my heart rate was only a little higher than usual this morning.  Let's hope not, that would be a major problem.

Anyway, I accomplished my deadline work today and essentially nothing else.  Which isn't great, but it's better than nothing.  It didn't help that I got up about 8:15 and wasn't in until 9:00 and even then I dragged.  We'll see how tonight goes.

Going to try eating less in the evenings. 

Breakfast:  2 slices pepper jack, coffee

Satisfactory.

Lunch:  Pizza slices, Simply tostitos chips

Local slice shop.  Not as big as usual but fine.

Dinner:  3x mexican tacos, avocado, coke

 

Always a bummer when served underripe avocado.

Exercise:  Nope.  Not remotely possible.

117.2 

Hazy Days

Sunday, August 3, 2025

We've had wildfire smoke from Canada the last few days and I think today was the worst it's ever been.  So hazy and it was just unpleasant out there despite the temp and humidity being ideal.

Managed some sleep last night, hurrah.  I had zero pep this morning, though.  Accomplished nothing.  Barely managed to kick myself out the door at lunch for golf.  Going to pay bigly tomorrow.

Didn't weigh until after breakfast, lol'd when it was down. 

Breakfast:  Lazy bagels w chive and onion cream cheese, coffee

 

Been a while.  Probably shouldn't have made them, heated things up a bit inside.

Lunch:  McD 2 double cheeseburger, coke

Again.

Dinner:  Brat MR, chips, salad, 12 oz Miller Lite

Sunday dinners.

Also TB cheesy beef burrito, chips and cheese, pepsi

Exercise:  18 holes with cart, standard walking no extra

117.6 

The Blah

Saturday, August 2, 2025

Well that sucked.  I do not have an explanation either.  Went to bed nice and early, just after 9:00.  Took quite a while to get to sleep.  Woke up at 12:45 after no more than two hours, and didn't get much sleep after that.  Do not feel good today.  Pulse is up, feel very weak.

Breakfast:  2 eggs over medium, hash browns, 3 strips bacon, raisin toast w jam, coffee

 

Standard pre golf breakfast.  A bit of a sour stomach but not too bad.

Lunch:  Orange Gatorade

No beer today.

"Dinner":  BK texas whopper, fries, dr pepper

Went with fast and easy.

Exercise:  18 holes with cart, no walking that I could avoid.

121.2 

A Nothing Day

Friday, August 1, 2025

Closing weekend of the big local festival.  It was nuts today.  Not much was accomplished.

Breakfast:  2 slices pepper jack, donut, coffee

Doh.

Lunch:  Wendys 2xJBC, fries, Dr. Pepper

They weren't busy, that was the only requirement.

Dinner:  Italian beef, fries, lemonade, caramel pecan clusters

Sigh.

Exercise:  Nope.

122.0 

Almost Twelve

Thursday, July 31, 2025

Well that was ... pleasant?  Lengthy?  Semi-satisfactory?  Lots of words, none of which seem to fit perfectly.  I crawled into bed at 8:15 last evening, though I did not go to sleep for a while.  I dragged myself out of the recliner after 7:30 this morning, so almost twelve hours later.  I doubt that I got more than five or six hours of high quality sleep -- I woke up a lot while in bed and didn't really get much sleep after I moved to the recliner about 3:30.  But it was relaxing.  Somewhat restful.  We'll see how the day goes.

Last day of July, which has been an unmitigated disaster on all fronts. Better get going.

Breakfast:  2 slices pepper jack, coffee

Again.

Lunch:  NR pepperoni and cheddar on english muffin, chips and onion dip

 

 

Eating some on hand stuff. 

Dinner:  Qdoba brisket bowl, CFA 5pc nugget, brownie, coke

And some not on hand stuff.

Exercise:  Nope

122.2 

Hit The Break

Wednesday, July 30, 2025

We're finally due for a break in the weather.  After a brutal stretch of humidity it's finally supposed to be nice starting tomorrow.  Can't weight.  I have so much to do at home that's been waiting for better conditions.  I just don't do much when it's in the 80s indoors.

Breakfast:  2 slices pepper jack, coffee

Had different plans but went with the dependable fast option.

Lunch:  Culver's bacon deluxe, fries, Dr. Pepper

Another thing to fix when there is less heat and humidity.

Dinner:  BK texas whopper, fries, cheesy tots, Dr. Pepper, marshmallow pinwheel cookies

Couldn't decide on dinner.  

Need to get it in gear. 

Exercise:  Nope.

121.0 

When You Don't Know What It Is

Tuesday, July 29, 2025

I would go and get my knee checked out, but I already know that they wouldn't know what it is.  I had this same thing, but worse, last summer after a day of overuse.  Visited the urgent care ortho, got x-rays, got a shrug.  Maybe arthritis.  It'll go away.  Eventually it did.  The fact of the matter is that there are so many things going on with that knee that it'll never be right.  Unless I have to have it replaced and I'd sure like to avoid that.  Which means I need to be less fat.

Breakfast:  2 slices swiss cheese, coffee

Last of the swiss.

Lunch:  Wendys 2x JBC, fries w ketchup, Dr. Pepper

Excessive

Dinner:  French dip, 12 oz Miller Lite

And TB supreme box, pepsi

Exercise:  9 holes with cart, minimal walking for obv reasons.  Went okay.

120.8 

Grinding

Monday, July 28, 2025

We've moved on to a new phase with the knee where it feels like it's kinda grinding.  It's not pleasant.  Also it's not stable so I have to watch it.  I am moving very slowly.  Doesn't help that I also feel like crap.  Going to need to do some dietary intervention, probably starting Wednesday.

Breakfast:  3 slices swiss cheese, coffee

Grabbed an extra slice and just went with it.

Lunch:  BK texas whopper, fries, cheesy tots, Dr. Pepper

Excessive.

Dinner:  LC pep pizza, sauce, pepsi

Very excessive.  And really not that good.  And I didn't get much done going back to the office.

Exercise:  Nope.

118.4 

Injuries Suck

Sunday, July 27, 2025

Argh.  I was fine when I went to bed.  Tired, sure, but I was moving just fine.

Woke up this morning and I can hardly walk.  Left knee and leg.  Not sure if it's overuse, a stress fracture, arthritis, ligament damage or a combination of all of them.  How can it get that bad lying in bed?  Frustrating.

It's gotten a bit better as the morning has progressed, but still ... ouch.

Breakfast:  Donuts, coffee, mix

Just on hand junk.

Lunch:  McD 2x double cheeseburger, coke

On the go.

Also, a small popcorn and pepsi later. 

Dinner:  Steak, salad, four cheese potatoes, 12 oz Miller Lite, ice cream

Sunday dinners.

Exercise:  10 holes with cart.  Quit due to heat/humidity and injury.

119.6 

Put Paid

Saturday, July 26, 2025

 Price paid for eating shenanigans.  Do better.

Busy day.  TGIS.

Breakfast:  2 eggs over medium, 3 strips bacon, hash browns, raisin toast w jelly, coffee

Standard

Lunch:  12 oz Miller Lite

Post golf

Dinner:  BK texas whopper, fries, cheesy tots, Dr. Pepper, Pepsi

Was hungry, went with fast.

Exercise:  27 holes with cart, insane amounts of extra walking

122.0 

At Least There Were No Donuts

Friday, July 25, 2025

If there were any donuts this morning yes I would have had one.

But there weren't.

And I survived.

Breakfast:  2 slices swiss cheese, coffee

I need to buy other cheese.

Lunch:  Jersey Mikes 56, Pepsi

Excessive.

Dinner:  Deluxe pizza, Coke

Also excessive.

Exercise:  Nope.

116.4 

Ready By Ten

Thursday, July 24, 2025

A relatively rare day these days where I did not eat breakfast.  Not entirely surprising that I was not hungry after eating way too much last night, still a little bloated.  I was ready for something by ten or so, but I'll make it to lunch with no meaningful hunger.  

Between being busy and it being insanely hot with no A/C at home it will be a bad eating day.

Breakfast:  Coffee

Yup.

Lunch:  Wendys 2x single, fries

Yuh.

Dinner:  BK texas whopper, fries, Dr. Pepper

 

Went for a hot fudge sundae after a long meeting too.

Exercise:  Nope

116.8

Sage Twits

Wednesday, July 23, 2025

I popped open twitter this morning and was greeted by an incredibly on-point tweet.  With apologies to Mr. Maunil Patel MD for the lack of a direct link, his post said -- Signs you're becoming metabolically healthy:  You don't crash after meals, you move through the day without sugar fixes, you take stairs without panting, you're not ruled by cravings or snack breaks, you sleep deeper, wake up sharper, your energy lasts longer than your meetings.

Yeah.  I am definitely not metabolically healthy.  I do crash after meals and I don't sleep deeply or wake up sharp.  Mixed bag on the other stuff, though there are definitely times where all of them are not good.  

As mentioned yesterday, I'm frustrated by how badly I feel during stretches of detox.  I need to power through and get on routine, but I struggle with finding days where I can just not be productive because I feel like crap.  That sounds like an excuse and it is an excuse, while also being true.

Anyway, another day.  I was a little puzzled by a drop on the scale but of course I never complain.  The late junk food meal calmed things down, I slept okay and felt decent when I got up this morning.  I am pleasantly surprised that my legs aren't beat up today, while it wasn't a big walking day yesterday there was some involved.

Breakfast:  2 slices pepper jack, coffee

Still not ideal, but it's very effective at making for a comfortable morning with no thoughts of food.  Not many carbs, not many calories.

Lunch:  Bacon egg and cheese on an english muffin

Only had swiss cheese this time and I half assed the eggs.  Still tasty.

Dinner:  Dominos pep bac beef onion, parm bites

Ugh.  Way too much.

Exercise:  Nope.

115.4 

Detox Needed

Tuesday, July 22, 2025

Sigh.  It's pretty frustrating to feel like this.  Several times lately I just have a power outage.  Start feeling like absolute crap.  I eat some junk, I feel better.  It needs to stop.  I need to detox.

Breakfast:  2 slices pepper jack, coffee

Working well.

Lunch:  Bacon egg cheese on english muffin, chips

 

Again.  Excellent.  Too many chips.

Dinner:  French dip, 12 oz Miller Lite

Also TB supreme box, pepsi

Exercise:  9 holes with cart

118.0 

That's The Joke

Monday, July 21, 2025

Another week.  Not ready for it but will do it anyway.

That's the joke.

Breakfast:  2 slices pepper jack, coffee

Again.

Lunch:  Bacon, egg and cheese on english muffin

 

Again.  And delicious again.  Easy too.

Dinner:  BK texas whopper, later some chips and onion dip

Audible, I had planned to get tacos but they were slammed.

Exercise:  Nope.  Pretty beat up after the weekend, hobbling around.

118.6 

Paying It Off

Sunday, July 20, 2025

Aww yes, starting the day off right.  I mean food wise, not sleep wise.  The sleep part was not great bob.  Too many wake ups, lots of vivid dreams, just not super restful.  Did the last few hours in the recliner.

Oh well.  I'm still pumped about breakfast.  Let's get on with the day.

Breakfast:  Bacon, egg and cheese on an english muffin, coffee

 

Local EM, NR no sugar bacon, 2 eggs, thin cheddar and pepper jack.  Delightful.

Lunch:  Chili cheese dogs, fries, coke

 

Tasty. 

Dinner:  Home tacos w LTC, a few Doritos, 12 oz Miller Lite, ice cream

Also TB beef burrito, chips and cheese, pepsi. 

Exercise: 18 holes with cart, not that much extra walking but I'm still beat.

118.6 

Silly Exuberance

Saturday, July 19, 2025

Hey, how about that!  I stopped at a grocery store for an item I missed yesterday and they had the clean local english muffins in stock.  I am silly excited about this.  No, I should not eat the carbs, but I definitely enjoyed my last run of breakfast sandwiches.  Let's go again.

Otherwise, TGIS.  Lots to do, but it's the weekend.

Breakfast:  2 eggs over easy, bacon, hash browns, raisin toast w jam, coffee

 

Standard.

Lunch:  12 oz Miller Lite

Post-golf

Dinner:  Cheeseburger w MPTgMgO, fries w ketchup, coke

Local five guys style place.  Tasty, but excessive. 

Also, coconut cookies

Exercise:  18 holes with cart, below average walking

119.0 

Some Consistency

Friday, July 18, 2025

Solace. I'll take some small amount in a few days of solid breakfast and lunch work.  Now I just need to fix the evenings and exercise.  And really get on a roll.

Very glad it's Friday, pretty out of gas.

Breakfast:  2 slices pepper jack cheese, donut, coffee

Forgot I had the donut, darned work.

Lunch:  4 eggs scrambled, 4 NR bacon sausage links

 

 

Again.

Dinner:  Italian beef, fries, coke, coconut cookies

Sigh.

Exercise:  Nope

119.0 

Its The Seed Oils

Thursday, July 17, 2025

... and flour and cheese and other stuff.  Backs you up and retains the water.  Ugh.

 Last night was obviously not good.  So we're trying again today.

Breakfast:  2 slices pepper jack cheese, coffee

Again.

Lunch:  4 eggs scrambled, 4 NR bacon sausage links

 

The bacon sausage is way better than the maple.

Dinner:  BK Texas Whopper, fries, cheesy tots, Coke, a couple Oreos, avo oil chips

Struggling to get over the hump here, been HANGRY at dinner time. 

Exercise:  Nope.

 121.2 

Spend Not

Wednesday, July 16, 2025

Hey how about that, a couple meals without spending.  I'd save a bunch if I just ate up the food I have on hand.  There is quite a bit of that.

We'll see how this evening goes.

Breakfast:  2 slices pepper jack cheese, coffee

Again.

Lunch:  4 eggs scrambled, 4 NR maple sausage links

 

I wasn't a big fan of the maple sausage, it tasted kinda artificial.  But I have more of it to eat.

Dinner:  Dominos pep beef onion bacon, parm bites, pepsi/coke

It didn't go well. 

Exercise:  Nope.

117.8 

Ready To Live

Tuesday, July 15, 2025

... like a poor?   Or something like that.

Anyway, another day in the books.

Breakfast:  2 slices pepper jack, coffee

Again.

Lunch:  BK texas whopper, fries, cheesy tots, Dr Pepper

Again.  And had a package of cheese crackers.

Dinner:  French dip, 12 oz Miller Lite

Again.

Also:  TB supreme box, pepsi/coke 

Exercise:  9 holes with cart not much walking

117.6 

Working On Cleanup

Monday, July 14, 2025

I have too much junk on hand.  Need to finish cleaning up and get on track.

Breakfast:  2 slices pepper jack, coffee

Definitely a multi-cup morning.

Lunch:  Wendys 2x single, a few chips, coke, a small bag of trail mix

Okay.

Dinner:  Culvers mushroom swiss burger.  Fries.  Coke/DrPepper

 Sigh.

And a few fudge grahams.  At least those are gone. 

Exercise:  Nope, happy for a day off.

116.2 

Missing The Air

Sunday, July 13, 2025

Off to a slow start this morning.  Woke up about 3:00, moved to the recliner, did more sleeping.  Lots of wild, vivid dreams.  Nothing much I remember other than the fact that they were wild.

My A/C has been out all season and most days it hasn't bothered me, but it's gotten a bit annoying.  It hit 80 degrees in here last night and since the outside air temp hasn't dipped much (plus it's been super humid) I can't cool it down.  Running the dehumidifier makes it more tolerable but it still saps my enthusiasm for accomplishing much of anything, since doing pretty much anything means sweating.

Breakfast:  Cheese toast, coffee

 

Thank goodness for the air fryer.  Quick, easy and not too much heat.

Lunch:  McD 2x double cheese, fries, coke

Only got fries b/c they were free. 

Dinner:  Home burger w MTP, chips, salad, 12 oz Miller Lite

 

Sunday dinners.  Also TB $5 box w pepsi

Exercise:  18 holes with cart.  Average walking.  I'm tired but not that tired.  Legs and feet are unhappy.

117.4 

Give Up Juice

Saturday, July 12, 2025

A pleasant summer Saturday.  Warm but not hot, humid but not suffocating.

Going to need to give up the beetus juice, but I'll probably finish the multipack I bought around the fourth.  It's funny that it's what I crave.  More so than food, even, at least when it's hot.  With crushed ice or nugget ice.

I was late getting out the door so no weight this morning.  I'm sure it was up. 

Breakfast:  2 eggs over easy, hash browns, 3 strips bacon, raisin toast w jam, coffee

 

Standard.

Lunch:  16 oz Miller Lite

Post-golf.

Dinner:  Double cheeseburger w lots of toppings, fries, Coke, a few salt and vinegar chips

Local place.  Fat burger.  Early dinner, will have some fudge graham cookies later. 

Exercise:  18 holes with cart, ample walking.

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Off Schedule Again

Friday, July 11, 2025

Off work today.  Schedule screwed up.

Breakfast:  McD sausage mcmuffin w egg, hash browns, coffee

I didn't order egg, I got egg.

Lunch:  Hot dog w no bun, cheese, peppers, relish.  Fritos.  Pulled pork w bbq, pasta salad

Event food.

Dinner:  BK texas whopper, mix, cokes

Too much mix.

Exercise:  18 holes with cart, not that much walking.  Still wiped.

116.8 

Not Much

Thursday, July 10, 2025

Ahh, a Thursday that's a Friday.  Not working tomorrow.

Breakfast:  2 slices pepper jack, coffee

Again.

Lunch:  BK Texas whopper, fries, coke

Fat.

Dinner:  TB supreme box, avocado ranch chix burrito, pepsi/coke

Very fat.

Exercise:  Nope.  Tomorrow will feature some, along with too much eating.

115.8