So Triggered

Tuesday, February 28, 2023

Last day of the month.  Good thing.  I'm sitting here irked, once again, at my broken satiety signal.  Just ate lunch.  Bigger lunch than usual.  I know that in five minutes I will probably realize that I am full.  Intellectually I know that I sure don't need more food.  And yet if I had anything remotely snackable I would be plowing through it right now.  It's triggering.

Otherwise, just another weekday.  Waiting for it to be spring.

Breakfast:  Coffee

Yup.  Easy three cup morning, could have had lunch early, didn't.

Lunch:  Soup, grilled cheese

Needed to use up both last week's bread and last week's cheese.  They gone.

Dinner:   Domino's ht pep saus mush onion grn pep, 12 oz Miller Lite

Sigh.  I am a sad pizza addict.  Need to get set up for soup for dinners.

Also 3 strips of basic Meijer bacon.  Cooked up a tray for the next couple days.

Exercise:  Nope.  FAIL.

56.4

Survival Mode

Monday, February 27, 2023

Survived the weekend, lots of effort but I did not come close to accomplishing everything I had hoped to get done.  Still, please with some progress on house projects.  Much more to do.  Less pleased by the lack of office time which made for a morning with too much time devoted to sorting and filing.  It will be a long day.

Breakfast:  Coffee

Easy three cup morning, could have had more tbqh.

Lunch:  Leftover roast beef, carrots, potatoes, gravy, roll w/ butter, 2 slices american cheeese

If it's possible it was even better the second time.  I went with the uberlazy reheat method, just dumped it all in one pot.  Worked great.  Probably could have skipped the cheese (eaten separately afterward) but oh well, I had some left from last week to work on.

Dinner:  2x mexican 2x american tacos, Nicks strawberry

Taco Monday.  Consumed at desk.

Exercise:  Nope.  Felt decent this morning but got to bed too late to get up.  That, plus it was coming down as freezing rain this morning.  It's nasty out there.

58.2

Overactivity Craps

Sunday, February 26, 2023

Err, cramps.  It's such a delightful side effect of being extra active -- I'm tired and yet I don't get enough sleep due to cramping.  Thankfully I only had to get up twice and neither one was super painful, the second was almost marginal, just enough to wake me up for a few minutes.   I'll never exactly understand why -- while I did a lot of work over hours yesterday, I didn't sweat any significant amount so I would not have expected to lose a bunch of electrolytes.  

Oh well whatever.  Another busy day ahead, though this one may require some significant office time.

Breakfast:  Lazy bagels w cream cheese, coffee

Not quite got my weekend routine sqaure.

Lunch:  Taco salad, al pastor

All good.  I do wish they'd do a keto bowl though.

Snack:  Nice vanilla wafer cookies

Sigh.

Dinner:  Roast beef, mashed potatoes, carrots, rolls w butter, 12 oz Miller Lite

All good.

Also:  Popeyes spicy chicken, a few Nice cheeto things

Sundays, man.  BTW nice cheeto things kinda suck.

Exercise:  Again quite active, just not as much as yesterday.  I'm counting it.

56.4

Less PFF

Saturday, February 25, 2023

TGIS.  As always.  Going to be a busy day though it is off to a very slow lazy start.  At least I'm not overly tired or sleepy despite not getting as much sleep as I would have hoped.  Didn't set an alarm but still had to get up to go and never dozed back off.  We'll see how it goes.

Anyway, nice to see an unwarranted drop this morning, unwarranted due to excessive chips and onion dip plus a late audible to add a Nicks.  I credit it entirely to the lack of pizza and fast food.  We'll see if I can maintain reasonable discipline today and tomorrow -- I certainly have solid things mapped out.

One more reason, not that I need it, to get back on track:  I received two new pairs of pants yesterday, one in my current size and one that's two sizes down.  I now have two pairs of the two sizes down.  I figure it will take some significant loss to get there, maybe 50lbs?  Dunno.  But it would be great to be able to wear them this summer.  I also have lots of shirts in the closet that I'd be able to wear.  Like a whole new wardrobe, right there waiting.  Want that.t

Breakfast:  Coffee, 2 slices sourdough toast w butter

I have a little bit of excess bread since I'll be baking a loaf of homemade tomorrow, so why not.  The sourdough is better as grilled cheese and after noting what I paid for this half loaf ($5.79) I'll be glad to go back to homemade.  Now I just need to watch for a sale on KAF organic flour so I can switch to that from the regular.

Lunch:  Soup, grilled cheese

Yup.  Decided to soup it up on the weekend.  Better check to make sure I have enough to get through the week, but I guess I can always eat lentils if I run out.

Dinner:  Deluxe pizza, 12 oz Miller Lite

Change of plans, busy.  Not ideal but tasty.

Exercise:  Nope.  Hopefully it's going to be warm enough this week to melt the ice, I'm itching to get outside but I despise having to worry about ice.

Edit:  OH HECK YES.  Major house project that involved tons of movement, moving furniture, all sorts of "fun".  I'm wiped out so it counts.  

58.2

Limping Leaking Oil

Friday, February 24, 2023

Half a day to go until it's the weekend.  Sort of.  It will be busy, crammed with work and all around miserable, but at least it will be the weekend.  Just being able to ignore the phone and the work email for a day or two is liberating.

Anyway, glad this week wasn't worse on the scale.  It was really bad, sure, but the last few days could have produced even more bloat instead of staying relatively steady.  I have a plan, which will kick in (HOPEFULLY) this weekend and carry me through to vacation.  Let's go.

Breakfast:  Coffee

Yup.  Could certainly have eaten, did not.

Lunch:  Soup and grilled cheese

Excellent as always.  I have dough to make bread for the next two weeks in the fridge, at some point I will re-evaluate whether that's a cut in carbs I need to make.  Will probably depend on how dinner and walking go.

Dinner:  Lentils, chips w onion dip, Nicks PB cup

Yeah.  Didn't buy much of anything at the grocery store and still managed to spend $72.

Exercise:  Nope.  Slept okay, I guess, lots of snoring.  Need to adjust the bed/wake times though.

60.6

So Very Relentless

Thursday, February 23, 2023

At least I figured out this evening what the plan is.  So that's good.

Otherwise, yeesh.  Good for half a day, bad for the rest.

Breakfast:  Coffee

Yup.  Actually had an appetite late morning.

Lunch:  Soup, grilled cheese

Good as always.

Snack:  2x TB chipotle chicken ranch burritos, stale paczki

Hungry last afternoon.  

Dinner:  2x Popeyes spicy chicken, Avo oil chips w home onion dip

Okay.  Let's get through tomorrow and then get straight.

Exercise:  Nope.  Ice everywhere.

60.4

There It Is

 Wednesday, February 22, 2023

And pizza finally pushes things over the top.  Well done, idiot.  And a delightful side effect, my body spent hours working on digestion and so I didn't get to sleep until after midnight.

Lousy, lousy weather incoming today.  It will be interesting to see if I end up staying at the office all day or if hunkering down at home is the play this afternoon.  I guess we'll see just how bad it gets.

Breakfast:  McD egg mcmuffin, BEC biscuit, hash brown, coffee, leftover paczki

Was actually hungry for no good reason.

Lunch:  Sack of Wendy's

One of those days.

Dinner:   Dominos brooklyn pep mush, nacho Siete chips

Winter storm arrived this afternoon.

Exercise:  Nope.  Not nearly enough sleep, though this morning was not nearly as bad as expected.

60.2

Just Sucking

Tuesday, February 21, 2023

It wasn't a great day.  Not super productive.  Mediocre night of sleep - the snore app said that wasn't bad at all for once, but I was not rested when I got up.  Bad eating.  You know, the usual.

Maybe I just need to get MAD.

Breakfast:  Coffee, paczki

Fat Tuesday, someone brought paczki (however that is spelled).  Tasty, but yeah, it was a donut.

Lunch:  Keto bowl

Pretty good.

Later:  CFA fries, frosted lemonade, peanut butter pretzels

Sigh.

Dinner:  Pep sausage pizza

Yeesh.

Exercise:  Nope.

57.0

Limited Out

Monday, February 20, 2023

Reaching the upside bound of what I could possible live with in the short term weight wise.  Need to not go up any more.  Tacos, don't fail me now.  Oh, and the system processed a bunch so that helped, probably not going to get that save tomorrow.

Breakfast:  Coffee

Yup.  Easy three cup morning.

Lunch:  Leftover lasagna w lots of extra sausage and some extra sauce, sourdough bread w butter

Cleaned up five different things - the last being a stick of butter.  All good.  And a bit much.

Dinner:  2x american, 2x mexican tacos.  Olive oil chips w homemade sour cream onion dip

No photo, standard tacos.

Exercise:  Nope.  Predictably tired this morning, didn't get to sleep on time.

59.4

What Is The Deal With FAIL

Sunday, February 19, 2023

Need to get my head screwed on straight.  Seriously.

Glad it is Sunday, even if the to-do list is insanely long.  Let's get cracking.

Breakfast:  Lazy bagels with cream cheese, coffee

Yup.  Another thing I need to quit.

Lunch:  Chips and guac, pepperoni cheese toast

Okay, chips are cleaned up.  That was definitely a grocery store FAIL.  Also cleaned up an open package of pepperoni, most of a package of an open package of cheese and also the week's bread.

Also:  Nice mini oatmeal cookies

Dinner:  Lasagna, salad, garlic toast, brownie with vanilla ice cream

Birthday party.  Ate too much of course.

Exercise:  Nope.  Got up early enough that I should have gone, did not go.

58.4

Freezer Wishing

Saturday, February 18, 2023

Whew, TGIS.  Woke up in a good mood and that really hasn't changed, though the six hour Zoom seminar I spent most of the day sitting through tested that a bit.  Oh well, it's done and on to the weekend stuff.  Lots of chores to be done.

Was pleasantly surprised not to see a jump on the scale, though maybe I shouldn't have been given some serious waste disposal.  Yeesh.

Had to push the grocery shopping to today.  I had chuck roast or brisket on my list, want to make up a batch of barbacoa tomorrow in the slow cooker.  Ended up buying a chunk of brisket but man was I envious -- the chunk I got was $9.00 a pound but they had whole briskets for $3.99 a pound.  Unfortunately, the smallest one I saw was almost 18 pounds.  If I had a lot of room in the freezer -- or, let's be honest, ANY room in the freezer -- plus a vacuum sealer I would have dropped the seventy bucks, brought one home and cut it up.  Definitely going to make note of that for the future.

Breakfast:  McD egg mcmuffin, BEC biscuit, hash brown, apple fritter, coffee

It was a McBreakfast.  It was fine.  Spendy though even with a coupon.

Lunch:  2x beef american tacos, 1x al pastor mexican taco

Yeah, it's not Monday.  This was a lot more expensive.  Tasty though.

Snack:  Tortilla chips and salsa

Sigh.  I know there are cleaner tortilla chips (beef tallow fried) on the net, I just haven't sucked it up and ordered them.

Dinner:  Qdoba brisket bowl, 12 oz Miller Lite, CFA fries and frosted lemonade

Sheesh.  Operations at the Q were a hot mess but my bowl was fine.  Didn't really need the dessert.

Exercise:  Nope.

55.0

Time To Commit To Jars

Friday, February 17, 2023

Glad that it is Friday, it's been a long week.  Dismal weather last evening so many closings today - I'm glad I don't have to travel at all today.  Just a work in the office affair.

Thinking this morning about some of the roadblocks to success that I've been encountering lately.  Of course the big one is just failure of will, but it's a lot easier to avoid that one if there are not some other problems.  I can do a better job of keeping things picked up and cleaned up, especially with the non-dishwasher dishes.  I have been behind on those this week.  I can do a better job of having things prepped/thawed/ready to go.  Which I'll get to in a moment.  I can work on adjusting my daily schedule, work commitments and evening activities so I don't crash so hard at the end of the day.  

But what I decided I really need to do is commit to jars.  The truth of the matter is I don't like cooking things when I get home after work.  If it's 6:30 or 7:00 I'm ready to eat, not ready to start making something to eat.  I have always had a bad habit of eating right away when I get home which meant lots of pizza and fast food.  It's very evident this week as well.  So the solution, I think, is to just stick to a routine of stuff that's premade, frozen, can be plopped on the stovetop and is ready in 10 minutes with zero effort.  Jars.  Lentils, beans, soups, etc.  I can include leftovers like egg casserole that just need to be heated up.  That sort of thing.  I just need to not have these plans that take half an hour or more, it just. does. not. work.

All that said, today will be a bad eating day.  Nothing thawed, nothing ready to go.  Hopefully that can be cleaned up this weekend and I'll get a fresh reboot. 

Also:  I put down some thoughts earlier this week about the struggles I've been having with satiety and the brain on some days not ever getting a signal to stop eating I'm full.  I speculated that low carb alone might not "fix" that -- I know it fixes hunger issues, but that's not what this is.  But maybe I am wrong.  Mr. Michael Eades in his weekly newsletter says:

I think that people going on a low-carb diet get a double dose of good. Limiting carbs reduces the mass that has to be gotten rid of, which is kind of step one. And limiting the carbs also reduces the amount of insulin produced and, in time, gets rid of insulin resistance and hyperinsulinemia. Consequently fat can easily flow out of the adipose cells and provide energy instead of being trapped away, which signals to the brain that there is plenty of sustenance on board. The brain ratchets down hunger, so there is no strong compulsion to eat. Quite the opposite of the vicious cycle of eat less move more, it’s a beneficial cycle.

Maybe it is enough and that over time the system can be repaired to the point where the correct signals are sent and received.  I'm not sure.  But it's something that can be tried.

Breakfast:  Coffee

Yup.

Lunch:  Italian beef, fries, Wendy's choc frosty

Good.  Bad for me.

Dinner:  Reuben, fries, 12 oz Bells Quite Brite, a couple crackers and bar cheese

Forgot I was going out to dinner.  

Also:  Popeyes spicy chicken, apple pie

Sigh.

Exercise:  Nope.  On the plus side I slept through the night (six hours or so) without waking up for the second night in a row, the downside is that means I'm retaining not shedding liquid.

55.6

Not As Steep

Thursday, February 16, 2023

Honestly I expected to pay big time for yesterday.  It was bad  I held on to all sorts of liquid and yet ... it wasn't that bad?  Significant but not historically bad or anything.  Anyway, limping along trying to get through the week.

Someday I will hold things together long enough to reset the connection between brain and stomach.  It's bad enough that the satiety signal usually takes a while to kick in, but some days -- like yesterday -- it never kicks in at all.  I have no idea how much more I could have eaten in an elusive search for satiety but I suspect it would be a lot.  It's frustrating.  I say I'm not ready to be done eating when I'm done eating -- if I hit satiety I would be done.  Aargh.

As a practical matter what that means is that I have to rely on force of will and, well, the fact that I'm as fat as I am tells you everything you need to know about how well that has ever gone.

Relatedly, I don't know that low carb is the answer for that particular problem.  I know that on low carb I can go quite a while without getting hungry, but that's really not the issue.  I don't have any problem going 16+ hours between meals and occasionally longer.  I'm not plagued by hunger, it's more that once I start eating that triggers the desire to eat until I feel full.  

Sigh.

Breakfast:  Coffee

Yup.

Lunch:  Soup, grilled cheese

Really hit the spot on a cold snowy day.  I really like the sourdough bread, might have to make myself learn how to do sourdough.

Dinner:  Deluxe pizza, 12 oz Miller Lite, Nicks mint chip

It's been a long week.

Exercise:  Nope.

55.2

Garbage Day

 Wednesday, February 15, 2023

Yuck.

Breakfast:  Coffee, followed by CFA hash brown bowl, chicken biscuit

 

Free bowl added to my biscuit.  It was okay.  Biscuit excellent.

Lunch:   Chipotle barbacoa bowl, DQ reeses blizzard

 Tasty, but on balance I think I like Qdoba better as long as they have the brisket.

Dinner:  2x Popeyes spicy chicken, cuvlers fries w ketchup, choc shake

No photos of this FAIL.

Exercise:  LOL no

52.4

Let It Flow

Tuesday, February 14, 2023

Okay then.  Plan of going to bed early last night was foiled, I got in bed on schedule but then followed the news of the day on social media for a couple hours.  Sigh.  I did wake up at 4:30 and was pretty awake for an hour plus, then I nodded off in the recliner.  I don't really know why I'm like that some days.

Breakfast:  Coffee

Yup.

Lunch:  Soup, grilled cheese

Particularly good grilled cheese today, I bought a loaf of localish sourdough and broke out the kerrygold, a couple sliced of cojack and boom delicious.

Dinner:  Dominos brooklyn sausage mushroom, 12 oz Miller Lite, almonds, Nicks cookie dough

Sigh.  Awful choices.  At least the nuts are gone.

Exercise:  Nope.  Should have gone out there.  Or at lunch, it's a beautiful day.

52.8

Whew'd

Monday, February 13, 2023

Whew is the word of the day.  Effectively wrapped up a work project today.  Have a few loose ends to tie up but the big stuff is done.  Which is a tremendous relief.  One less bit of stress.

Not much else going on.  I didn't get much accomplished this weekend so I'll be playing big time catch up.

Breakfast:  Coffee

And lots of it.

Lunch:  Qdoba brisket bowl

Didn't get to eat until after 3:00.  This was rather excessive.

Dinner:  2x mexican 2x american tacos, 12 oz Miller Lite, Nicks cherry chip

Also excessive.  But tasty.

Exercise:  Nope.  Going to try and crash early.

56.4

The Body Is Just Weird Man

Sunday, February 12, 2023

I ate a metric crapton of food yesterday.  Hundreds and hundreds of grams of carbs.  I was notably lazy.  I was just way, way off.  And yet, when I got on the scale this morning, it was down.  And a decent amount at that.  It's just weird.  I knew I disposed of a lot of liquid, but I also took in a lot.  I was notably marshmallowy in the middle this morning.  So I expected a gain.  And I didn't get one.

Tried to go to bed early to make up for the previous night's short sleep and was only partially successful.  Weirdness followed.  I went to sleep just after 10.  Woke up at 1, disposed, went right back to sleep.  Woke up at 4:15, had a little bit of a low-ox headache that formed right as I was waking up.  Disposed, was very tired still, went back to sleep pretty quickly in the recliner.  Had a miserable dream -- missed a whole day of work appointments was part of it -- and woke up with a different, more intense headache.  Stress headache.  Abated pretty quickly and I went back to sleep, finally waking up about 8:00, feeling much more rested.

After all that, the day is off to a decent start.  I broke out my old drip coffee maker for the first time in quite a while -- bought some decaf I wanted to try -- and I'm working on my second cup.  All good.  Lots to do today, then superb owl party tonight.

Breakfast:  Lazy bagels w cream cheese, coffee

Yup.  No seed oils.  Tasty, but really lousy for satiety.

Lunch:  Olive oil chips, roast beef and cojack cheese sandwich

Cleaned up the chips.  Cleaned up the loaf of french bread.  Not the other stuff.

Also:  Vigo yellow rice.  Another thing I had in stock and now I don't.  The good news, no seed oils,  was kinda surprised about that.  The bad, carb bloat coming right up.

Dinner:  Chili w cheese and sour cream, turkey/cheese/mustard sandwiches (x3)

Superbowl party.  

Also:  2x TB chipotle chix burrito.  I am a mental case.

Exercise:  Nope.

54.0  

Delayed Extrafatness

Saturday, February 11, 2023

The lack of commitment soldiers on.  I really need to get focused, but let's be honest, it probably won't happen before Monday.  

Early start to the day, woke up at 3:15 and had just enough of a low-ox headache (plus half clogged sinuses) that going back to sleep wasn't going to happen.  Could be a rough go.  We'll see I guess.  The scale is still catching up to my recent awfulness, another spike.  Being rather backed up is not helping.

Anyway, TGIS.  I have lots of stuff to do this weekend.

Breakfast:  Lazy bagels with plain cream cheese, coffee

No seed oils detected.  I was actually hungry, which was a little unusual.

Lunch:  Smoked brisket, olive sausage, cheesy potatoes, cornbread

Massively excessive.  Three times what I needed to eat.  Tasty though.  Seed oils:  Unknown.  Seems at least somewhat likely in the potatoes and cornbread.

Dinner:  Chips and dip, garlic cheese toast with tomato sauce

Clean.  Boulder Creek olive oil chips and a little sour cream dip I whipped up since none of the ones sold by Meijer are seed oil free.  Toast is just butter, parm, whole milk mozz and garlic powder.  Made the tomato sauce as well.

Anyway, my eyes still need to be on the prize.  While I should pay attention to the seed oils focus really should be on eating better, less binging, fewer carbs and getting going on some walking.

Exercise:  Nope.

57.0

Just The Worst Plus Ten K Words On Other Stuff

Friday, February 10, 2023

Yeesh.  Last night may have been the worst one yet.  Pizza, breadsticks and they threw in a cookie because they screwed up my order and I had to wait.  Ugh.  And because it was the Hut it was all saturated in oil and you just feel even worse than you should feel after eating all that.  Actually it's vaguely disturbing that I don't feel worse yet and this morning it's just some bloat and a lot of backup.

I was actually very surprised that the scale wasn't a LOT worse.  I predicted several pounds higher with an outlier number equal to my recent high, actuality wasn't any of that, just a little, and I'll lose that once the system unbinds.  So it could be worse.  Much worse.

Anyway, I was already thinking about it, but that meal really got me to thinking about industrial oils.  We'll call them seed oils, since canola/rapeseed, grapeseed, cottonseed, soybean, peanut, they're all going to fall in the same bucket here.  They are in EVERYTHING.  It's insane.  It's no wonder we're all fat, we eat crap and that crap has these added seed oils that make it even worse.  You can hardly eat out or buy anything processed and feel like you've avoided them.  

So much of it is so unnecessary, too.  I mean, there is a boatload of seed oil in commercial pizza.  There is typically none in the pizza I make at home.  It's true of bread products in general.  Some of it I get, they care about shelf life and stuff, but some of it is pointless.  Okay, that's not the right word.  I guess I'll stick with unnecessary.

If I have the time I may delve into a day or more and outline just how challenging it can be, see what that looks like.  I definitely would like to try again to really cut them out of my life as much as possible.  It will never be likely that I hit 100% -- too many social issues with that -- but I can definitely get close.  Eating out, which happens and especially during golf season, will be a problem.  But I eat 80% or so of my meals solo and I can control those.  So let's do it.

Whew, lots of words.  Maybe not 10k, but lots.

Breakfast:  Coffee

Unsurprisingly, I am not the least bit hungry.  I will double check the box but I'm pretty sure that Meijer bold coffee pods contain nothing except coffee.  (Edit:  Confirmed.  No oils.)

Lunch:  Soup, grilled cheese 

Standard.  One of the best grilled cheeses I've had lately.  First of the new batch of soup and it's intentionally a lot less soupy.  Will be more hearty.

Oil check:  Bread is clean.  I bought the one loaf I could find the other day in the grocery store from the local bakery outfit that didn't have oil as an ingredient.  I don't use oil when I bake bread at home, so I know it's not needed.  Butter, clean.  Cheese -- checked the label, it's clean.  So none in the sandwich.  Soup should also be clean - I sautee the veggies in butter (though in this batch I also used a little EVOO).  The garlic is packed in olive oil, I don't buy the other kind.  The ground beef, carrots, celery, onion are unprocessed.  Nothing in the can of tomatoes.  Actually I still need to check the labels on the V-8 and beef broth.  Both should be clean.  (Edit:  Whew, they are).

Dinner: Roast beef sandwich, Boulder Canyon olive oil chips, 12 oz Miller Lite

Satisfactory.

Oil check:  Clean.  Same bread, Meijer roast beef, Cabot cojack cheese, butter, French's mustard.  Went olive oil over avo oil for the chips, they were good.  Beer.  Had a Starry Zero Sugar a bit later.

So I managed a clean day but there was always nagging doubt.  I mean I checked the labels on cheese and mustard and coffee FFS.

Exercise:  Nope.

55.4

A Week of Wrong

Thursday, February 9, 2023

Wrong direction this week.  Bucking the trend of blowing up on the weekend and then inching down during the week, this time it's just more blowing up.  Sigh.

Breakfast:  Coffee

Yup.

Lunch:  Soup, grilled ham and cheese

Standard.  

Dinner:  Pizza Hut thin pep beef pork, breadsticks w sauce, choc chip cookie.

EPIC fail.  Ten thousand calories of crap.  Might be up ten pounds tomorrow.

Exercise:  Nope.  Schedule is definitely off.

54.4

Just The Usual Aftermath

Wednesday, February 8, 2023

Yeah, just the usual.  After two very long days, I'm wiped out this morning.  Was not ready to get up when I did, but I had (relatively) early work obligations.  Today will also be a long day, but I'm planning on not going back after dinner (even though I should) in order to focus on extra rest.  

Assuming I can make my dumb ass go to bed, that is.  And not overeat.

Anyway, there was a price to be paid for yesterday's dismal eating and the scale said what it said.  Need to deal with that, move on and do better.

Breakfast:  Coffee

Yup.  Last night I pondered whether I might want to fix a couple eggs and toast, but not only was I too late to do that I was not hungry.  So it was easy to just stick with the usual.

Lunch:  Ham and cheese sandwich

Short on time so I skipped the soup.

Dinner:  Qdoba brisket bowl.  Later, a Popeye's spicy chicken, 12 oz Miller Lite, almonds

I had an appetite.  I ate.  Add a slice of bread with butter too.

Exercise:  Nope.

51.6

Frenched

Tuesday, February 7, 2023

Yesterday ended up being one of my most productive days in quite some time.  Worked late and even spent a little time on a project that needed to be done.  Heaps more to do, of course, but some things got moving and that's great.  Not as fired up today but some of that is just scheduling, I had meetings and stuff instead of mostly work time.

Going to be another long day in a week-long string of them.

Breakfast:  Coffee

Yup.  Only one cup, too, never had a chance to get another.

Lunch:  Brisket w a little hot bbq sauce, smoked mushrooms, pickle slices

Went by this BBQ place after an appointment and knew I had to stop for an early lunch.  Like those mushrooms.

Later Lunch:  Ham and cheese sandwich

Picked up a loaf of locally baked french bread on my way back since I threw out the loaf of bread I made.  Just not there yet on quitting wheat.

Dinner:  Dominos brooklyn sausage mushroom pizza

Late night at the office.

Fourthmeal:  TB 3x chipotle grilled chx burritos

Exercise:  Nope.

50.0

Why Cracks

Monday, February 6, 2023

Sigh.  Weekends aren't supposed to be for the gains.  And yet there you go.  Just an awful day eating yesterday, then I stayed up way too late instead of doing what was necessary to get the week off to an early and positive start.  Oh, and I need to add peanuts and 2 slices of a homemade loaf of spelt rye bread with butter to my list from yesterday.  I think I'm going to chuck the rest of the loaf, it seemed to be OK but my spelt was pretty old.  C'est la vie.

Despite all that it was a very productive morning, at least by my modest standards.  Pleased about that.

Breakfast:  Coffee

Yup.

Lunch:  Leftover egg enchilada casserole, leftover sausage

Last of what I made for lunch on Saturday.  Still tasty.

Dinner:  2x mexican 2x american tacos

Standard.

Exercise:  Nope.  Dammit.

54.2

Overly Porky

Sunday, February 5, 2023

At some point yesterday I realized that my planned meals for the weekend were 100% pork (when it comes to meat).  Which is rather amusing since I often am 100% beef during the week.  Less amusing, perhaps, given that I was reading some stuff on why pork may be less ideal - at least conventionally raised pork that's probably being fed soy and other crap.  I need to step up and just source everything I can -- beef, pork and chicken -- from my local farmer who I trust to not do that.

Anyway, got rid of some morning and was a little leaner this morning.  Still haven't bounced all the way back from the latest ballooning (topical!) but it's coming.

Breakfast:  Toast, bacon, coffee

Yup.

Lunch:   Leftover egg enchilada bake, leftover sausage

Half of the leftovers of each, good thinking adding the leftover sausage because everything is better with enchilada sauce.  Oh, and I did look up the ingredients list for that and it wasn't as bad as feared.  Bad, yes, but not as awful as expected.  Still need to make my own.

Snack:  Peanuts.  Still working on that jar of Planters dry roasted.  Again, must not repurchase.

Dinner:   Busy day casserole, green beans, peaches, rolls with butter. 12 oz Miller Lite, mint chip ice cream w choc sauce, Popeye's spicy chicken

Doh.  Sundays.

Exercise:  Nope.  Slept until 8:00.  Had a couple of very crazy dreams after I moved from the bed to the recliner about 4:15.

51.4

Boost Needed

Saturday, February 4, 2023

Nothing much this morning.  Woke up early but not real rested after staying up too late.  I really should recommit to going to bed at a much more reasonable hour.  Also kinda stalled on the diet and exercise front.  Need a boost or a breakthrough or something.

I am reconsidering the no bread approach.  It is definitely a useful vehicle for butter consumption (lol).  Thinking about throwing together some rye dough to bake tomorrow so I have a loaf for this week.

Breakfast:  Toast, bacon, coffee

Cleaning up some of the week's loaf.  And a little leftover bacon.

Lunch:   Enchilada egg casserole

Eggs, sausage, pepper jack, a red bell pepper, onion, jalapeno and enchilada sauce.  Very tasty.  I need to look into making my own enchilada sauce, I'm sure I'm going to cringe when I look at the ingredients on Old El Paso, but I had a can and used it up.

Also:  Peanuts for a snack, have a jar to eat up.  Will not be buying more for multiple reasons.

Dinner:  Chipotle sour cream sausage, mini tater tots w ketchup, SF banana cream pudding

More cleanup.  Had the sausage in the freezer (I ate a link and a half, which was too much) and the partial bag of tots.  More stuff I need to stop buying.  It was okay.

Exercise:  Nope.  I think that after this morning the super cold stuff is done - about 10 degrees out there right now.  

54.0

Nothing Notable

Friday, February 3, 2023

Working on getting through to the weekend.  Gaining on it.  

Nothing of note happening, just the usual work.  Coldest day in a while, but it's supposed to warm up a bunch starting tomorrow.  Might even melt off the snow.  Which would be good, bad footing is more of a problem than anything else when it comes to getting myself out to walk.

Breakfast:  Coffee

Yup.

Lunch:  Soup, grilled cheese

Notably good gc today.  I'll miss them next week.  Or if I can't stand it I'll make bread.  But I do want to cut back the carbs and that's a super obvious spot.  Also intend to make the soup a little less soupy this weekend.

Dinner:  Home tacos, 12 oz Miller Lite, SF banana cream pudding

Last of the tacos.  Still good.  Had low expectations for the pudding (artificial banana flavor is usually terrible) but it was fine.  As is now standard, the rest is for tomorrow.  Almost out of milk, too.

Exercise:  Nope.  Was above zero this morning but not by much.

54.2