The Inexcusable

Saturday, February 23, 2013

My attitude lately has just been awful and it reached a low point this morning.  I got up at the usual time ... and did nothing.  Absolutely nothing.  I sat on the couch and stared at the morning news.  For hours.  And then the sun came up and I decided I did not want to go for a run if there would be other people around.

Just typing that is incredibly embarrassing.

I'm really down on myself right now.  I have struggled to power through.  Some of that is schedule-based - I've been trying to help a friend who's down but that involves staying up late and I lose the consistent sleep.  Some of it is diet-based - have you seen what I've been eating?  But most of it is just plain old mental weakness.  A failure of will.

It is completely inexcusable.

So, here is what I'm going to do.  I'm going to write a separate post about what I want.  I'm going to live with the fact that I'm going to eat some crap today.  And I'm going to get up tomorrow morning and get my ass right out the door.  Tomorrow's food will be a challenge - I'll want to go out to breakfast and Sunday dinner is always a problem - but as long as I get the exercise in and don't blow it too bad I will not hate myself.  And I will be on top of what I'm going to eat this week.

Breakfast:  3 egg omelet with bacon, cream cheese and avocado; sausage; coffee

Snack:  Chips and onion dip.

Lunch:  Italian beef sandwich, chicago dog, fries

Dinner:  12" deluxe pizza

Exercise:  None.  As mentioned, I talked myself out of it because I suck.  It stops here.  Oh, I will be cleaning, I hit the grocery store and stuff like that but those things do not count.