Inconsistency In Motivation

Thursday, February 21, 2013

Still dealing with inconsistent motivation.  It's a little frustrating, to be honest.  I suppose I need to latch on to something, find a prize on which to keep my eyes, but I have not figured out what that should now be.  I have goals, sure, and things I'd like to do.  But at the moment there is a decided disconnect between those goals and the day-to-day actions, especially eating.  Intellectually I know that if I can keep up the exercise and keep the eating somewhat in check I will reach all of my physical goals in time.  Despite that there are still days when I don't stop myself from eating 4,000 calories at dinner time.

I will probably never understand why I do that.  All I can do is to do better.  Do better.  There is no try, only do.

Breakfast:  1 container Fage full fat greek yogurt, coffee

I stopped at the store yesterday to get the yogurt.  I have to go to a different one - when I was in Meijer this week it appeared that not only do they not carry the full fat version, they've stopped carrying the 2% version in the small containers.  Everything was the 0% version, plus some new stuff with fruit (and lots of sugar).  If the other store stops carrying it, well, I guess I won't be eating yogurt unless I start making it myself.  If I had access to non-pastuerized milk I probably would do just that.

I like to have a grab-and-go breakfast, especially since I've had more issues getting out the door in the morning the last few weeks.  I still get up at the usual time but I'm getting out for exercise 15 or more minutes later than usual, leaving less time to go through the rest of the routine while still hitting my departure time goal.  I may need to find something to add to this, but I'm not sure what it will be.  Something to think about this weekend perhaps.

Lunch:  3 jumbo CF eggs fried in a bit of real lard, 4 strips CF cajun bacon, leftover oatcakes

Oh egg pictures, how I have missed you.

That's what I had left for bacon and eggs.  I actually shorted myself a bit on the eggs, since they were definitely over easy and I didn't go real hard after the yolk. Cleaning out the fridge.

Dinner:  Taco salad, spicy pork, lots of hot sauce

Taco Salad Thursday

Tastes even better when on sale.

Exercise:  C25K, Week 8, Day 1.  28 minutes of jogging.  Almost.  I had app issues today - first, halfway through the "run" my music stopped playing.  I had to stop and get it going, which proved to be harder than it should have been between the fogged up glasses and tiny app text.  Then, I didn't get the voice prompt that I had completed the running section (or the 1 minute left warning).  So I just went to where I'd finished the 25 minute days and added on about six more blocks.  I think that should be about right.  Pedometer said 3.3 miles in 53 minutes.

Conditions were mostly OK.  Some icy spots but a lot of clear stretches.  Weather was fine.  Traffic was modest - I did have to dodge a reasonable number of cars but not that many.

Felt okay enough I guess.  Less resistance than usual to getting started.  As usual, the first half was pretty much fine, then I had the music problem.  Getting restarted wasn't enjoyable and I had to slog up the hill.  The rest of the way wasn't too bad.  I'm still really, really, really slow and my thighs aren't real fond of this but overall it's going fine.  I'm hoping that over the next 9+ weeks I can build to the point where I can do the entire 3 mile loop portion jogging in 45 minutes or less, taking on a couple of additional segments for the warm up and cool down.  Once I can do that I'll work on getting the speed up and the time down.

I suppose that I could punish myself for technically not completing the assignment (I couldn't fix the app while moving, so I stopped, interrupting the 28 minutes straight requirement) but I see no point in doing so - what I am I going to do, go back to 25 minutes straight?