Meltdown Deluxe

Monday, March 6, 2017

Sigh.  It's a fascinating glimpse into how messed up my brain is.

I made a mistake today.  I let myself get too hungry.  And I didn't have anything handy to solve the problem.  When I left work I was ravenous.  I went through the nearest drive thru and got the deal of the day.  Which helped.  BUT... because the switch had been flipped I wasn't satisfied to stop there.  I mean, I almost saved it and contained the damage.  But I didn't.  Despite a feeling of relative satiety that built gradually I still got pizza.  And ate pizza.  Which I didn't need, at that point it was purely reflexive, emotional, the subconscious-calling-the-shots eating.

Awful.

So tomorrow.  More water.  And I need to bring a package of jerky to work so that if I get hungry like that I can eat something.  Immediately.

Breakfast:  ~ 5" leftover Subway ham and cheese

Five inches of "meh".  I thought about just not finishing it.

It wasn't as good the 2nd day.  I think my urge for the subway has been sated.

Lunch:  3 tacos mexican style with hot sauce

Pictured fully dressed with 2x hot sauces for variety.

I just didn't eat enough lunch.  Last week 3 was enough.  I felt pretty good after eating 3.  But by 5:00, good night.  Maybe I should have eaten lunch later.  That was probably the real problem.

Dinner:  2 Culvers single cheese butterburgers, Domino's brooklyn crust with pepperoni, ham, onion

It was hard to delay long enough even to take this crappy photo.

Obviously complete and utter failure.  I didn't take a picture of the pizza, I just plowed through it.  Like I said above, by the time I ate it my stomach was feeling pretty content, but some part of my brain said MUST.  EAT.  MOAR.

Exercise:  Nope.  More walking around the office than usual, by quite a bit, but it does NOT count.

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