One Tiny Step

Monday, April 22, 2013 through Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Still failing, except today got off to a good start.  Monday and Tuesday were more fail, no exercise and all McFood and/or pizza plus chips or something.

Wednesday:

Breakfast:  Yogurt, coffee

Lunch:  2 Spicy McChickens, large fries  (oops)

Dinner:

Exercise:  Hey, a walk!  It really felt foreign it has been sooooo long.  Short loop, pedometer said 2.33 miles in 45 minutes.  Knees cranky, felt fat (am fat), ruled out jogging quickly.

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Still Failing To Relaunch

Wednesday, April 17 - Sunday, April 21, 2013

Still failing.  Really rough day on Friday, carried over into the weekend.

Still eating like crap and not exercising.  Haven't weighed.  It will be ugly.

Let's Try This Again

Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Okay.  As mentioned in prior post, I'm writing this mid-day even before I get back on the horse.  Oh, logically I should start right this second, but instead I'm going to be realistic.  Lunch will be rushed again -- I'm severely out of whack that part of the day -- and I didn't have energy to exercise this morning.

So instead I am going to hope to get started with some modest accomplishments this evening - a sound dinner, probably some beans and turkey or bacon and eggs, then clean up and get set up for tomorrow.  Set out clothes.  I know lunch tomorrow will be more normal, so I have hopes for an entire day of being good to get the ball rolling.

Time to amp up the want and to turn it into action.

Breakfast:  McDonalds bacon egg & cheese biscuit, 2 sausage burritos, coffee

Lunch:  I forget, but it was fast

Dinner:  Forget, but it was undoubtedly pizza

Exercise:  None.

Not Just Fall Off

Tuesday, April 9, 2013 through Monday, April 15, 2013

This might have been the single worst week of my life in terms of diet and exercise.  No exercise, which is not unusual.  Non-stop binge eating.  Working until midnight every night.  No sleep.  Gained a significant amount of weight though I don't know exactly how much b/c I haven't weighed.

I feel like crap and deservedly so.  Time to regain control.  As I write this (on Tuesday morning), I had hoped to get rebooted first thing.  Instead I was up well past midnight working last night and I just cannot get up before dawn to exercise under those circumstances.  So I had a crap breakfast and I'm hoping to get started with a good meal this evening.

Did not track specifics but pretty much every day began with a mcbreakfast, some kind of rushed fast food lunch, pizza for dinner, chips and dip when snacking and lots of them.  The only positive is no sugar.

Icking

Monday, April 8, 2013

Title was going to involve 'ticking' but this might actually work better.

Breakfast:  Yogurt

Lunch:  Forgot what it was specifically, see next post

Dinner:  Forgot what it was specifically, see next post

Exercise:  None.  Schedule totally out of wack, major sleep deficit, endless stress.  This week is going to suck even though I really really do want to get on track.

Some More Fail

Saturday, April 6, 2013 - Sunday, April 7, 2013.

Yeah, still more fail.

Saturday:
B:  Bacon egg & cheese biscuit, 2 sausage burittos, coffee
L:  Qdoba naked burrito, usual
D:  Deluxe pizza, a couple Bell's Two Hearted Ales
S:  Chips and onion dip, doritos
Ex:  None

Sunday:
B:  Same
L:  2 Spicy McChickens
S:  Chips and onion dip, lots
D:  Spaghetti w/ ground beef, garlic toast, salad w/ italian
Ex:  18 holes with cart

Week Of Vacation

Saturday, March 30, 2013 through Friday, April 5, 2013

Vacation travel means all kinds of weirdness.

Saturday:  Breakfast - sausage burritos, coffee;  Cracker Barrel double meat breakfast, coffee
Lunch:  Wendy's double with cheese, value fries
Dinner:  Applebees chicken fajita rollup, draft Miller Lite
Snack:  100 cal almonds
Exercise:  None, in car all day

Sunday:  Breakfast: Cracker Barrel double meat breakfast, coffee
Lunch:  Cookout burger cheddar style, fries
Dinner:  Outback 9 oz sirloin, mashed potatoes, salad w/ ranch, Miller Lite
Also:  2 Yuenglings
Exercise:  27 holes w/ cart, lots of walking

Monday:  Breakfast:  hotel eggs n sausage w/ cheese, coffee
Snack:  Small bag of peanuts
Lunch:  Reuben w/ fries, Yuengling draft
Dinner:  Pizza, salad w/ italian, 2 garlic rolls
Also:  2 Yuenglings
Exercise:  36 holes w/ cart, LOTS of walking

Tuesday:  Breakfast:  hotel eggs n bacon w/ cheese, oatmeal w/ butter, coffee
Snack:  Small bag of peanuts
Lunch:  Reuben w/ chips
Dinner:  Olive garden chicken parmesan w salad and breadsticks, yuengling draft
Also:  2 Yeunglings
Exercise:  36 holes w/ cart, not quite as much walking

Wednesday:  Breakfast:  hotel eggs n sausage w/ cheese, oatmeal w/ butter, coffee
Snack:  Small bag of fritos
Lunch:  Sonic bacon double cheeseburger
Snack:  lots of peanuts
Dinner:  Applebees combo fajitas, yuengling draft
Exercise:  18 holes w/ cart

Thursday:  Breakfast:  scrambled eggs and bacon, 1 slice wheat toast w/ butter, biscuit w/ gravy, coffee
Snack:  small bag of peanuts
Lunch:  Panera 1/2 ham and swiss on rye and small greek salad; coffee
Dinner:  2 spicy mcchickens, chips and onion dip
Exercise:  None

Friday:  Breakfast:  2 salt bagels w/ veggie cream cheese; coffee
Lunch:
Dinner:
Exercise:  None

Friday, A Friday

Friday, March 29, 2013

I actually got up early, was organized and plowed through a bunch of stuff.  A day that turned out better than expected.  Of course I was up until 2:00 and left at 6:00, but whatever.

Breakfast/Lunch/Dinner:  Again, don't really remember.  I think it was same deal, a couple of sausage burritos and coffee for breakfast, taco bell chicken burritos for lunch and a pizza for dinner, chips and onion dip for a snack.

Exercise:  I believe that I got in an abbreviated walk.

Short On Time, Long On FAIL

Thursday, March 28, 2013

Yergh.  Never going to be ready to leave on vacation on Saturday.

Breakfast:  McD bacon egg and cheese biscuit, 2 sausage burritos, coffee

Lunch /Dinner / Snack:  To be honest, I don't even remember.  I think it was a couple spicy McChickens for lunch, pizza for dinner and chips and onion dip for a snack.  This is why I need to do this daily, not a week later.

Exercise:  At least I made myself get out of bed (on < 4 hours as usual) and get in an abbreviated walk before going back to work.  1.5 miles in 29 minutes according to the pedometer ... I really should double check my stride length.

Deserves Explanation, Gets None

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

So busy.  Just nuts.

Breakfast:  2 McD sausage burritos, coffee

Snack:  A few potato chips

Lunch:   2 Taco Bell chicken burritos

Dinner:   Domino's pepperoni, bacon, onion pizza

Snack:  Chips and onion dip

Exercise:  None

Fail Ongoing And Continual

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

Not getting much better, that's for sure.  Yeesh.

Breakfast:  2 Mcdonalds sausage burritos, coffee

Lunch:  Qdoba naked buritto, usual

2nd Lunch:  2 Spicy McChickens

Dinner:  Double cheeseburger and fries

Snack:  Chips and onion dip, lots

Exercise:  None

Unhappily Resigned

Monday, March 25, 2013

Starting to become resigned to being screwed up this week.  Personal stuff keeping me up still, huge steaming mounds of work to do.

Breakfast:  Yogurt, coffee

Lunch:  2 spicy McChickens

Dinner:  Spicy beans with a bunch of Meijer deli turkey, popcorn

Snack:  Chips and onion dip

Exercise:  Abbreviated walk, clocked in at 1.4 miles in 26 minutes.

At least it was something.  Felt good.

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Dude, Just Stop

Sunday, March 24, 2013

Stayed up so very late last night.  Didn't get up until 9:30 this morning, the latest I've been up in years.  So very very screwed up.

And then I compounded it by messing up the eating.  So much for my one day streak.

Breakfast:  None

Lunch:  3 johnsonville beef brats w/ jalapeno mustard, 3 slices sharp cheddar

Snack:  2 Taco bell chicken burritos

Dinner:  Casserole w/ pork, rice, cream soup, celery; roll w butter, green beans w/ cheddar cheese

Snack:  Chips & onion dip.   LOTS.

Exercise:  None.  MAD.

Possible Corrective Step(s)

Saturday, March 23, 2013

Not off to a world-beating start this morning, but at least I'm functional.  At least so far.  Between the bad eating and the erratic, limited sleep I am way, way off in the mornings.  I finally conceded that I should change my alarm time - moved it a half hour later to see if it would help.  I was able to get up but didn't do anything, ended up dozing for quite a long time.  So no exercise again this morning.  Is problem.

Breakfast:  Yogurt, coffee

Had to get coffee from McDonalds, resisted any temptation to order food.  Positive sign for the day.

Lunch:  Bowl of homemade vegetable beef soup, a couple ounces Meijer deli turkey

Oh hai soup, it's been a while

This was good.

Dinner:  Taco salad, spicy pork.  Lots of hot sauce.

Continuing with the old school theme

Snack:  2 servings of frozen leftover oatcakes

Also:   a glass of Concannon pinot noir.  Not the fullest bodied wine I've ever had, but not bad.

Exercise:  None.  Got up and dozed.  FAIL.


I will be so, so glad when things slow back down at work.  This is just crazy.

Bottomed Out Again

Friday, March 22, 2013

It's been a dismal month and this morning I had a talk with myself.  Going to try and get square tomorrow.  Be extra good this week going into vacation.  I can do that.  Vacation will be a struggle.  Then really hit the gas.  I have dreams yo.

Breakfast:  2 McDonald's sausage burritos, coffee

Lunch:  2 Spicy McChickens

Dinner:  Deluxe pizza, chips and onion dip

Exercise:  None.  Fat and lazy.

Back on the horse tomorrow.

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Wondering About Allergens

Thursday, March 21, 2013

Woke up this morning with major sinus blockage and a pounding headache, which I usually associate with oxygen deficiency.  Starting to wonder if I might have specific food intolerances - perhaps in addition to allergies to dust etc - that cause this sort of thing.

Anyway, another day, another opportunity to get back on track.  I'm hopeful that things will be a bit more normal today - have a good menu picked out.   I pulled some fresh stuff out of the freezer for tomorrow.  I might have to find the time to do some cooking this weekend, but we'll see about that.

It's so easy to get complacent when some things are going well in your life, you know?

Breakfast:  Yogurt, coffee

Lunch:  3 egg omelet with bacon, cream cheese and avocado; sausage; coffee

Dinner:  Little Caesars pepperoni pizza, chips and onion dip

Exercise:  None.  Winter hanging on with a vengeance and lack of sleep killing me.  Still haven't figured out a way to merge the personal life need to stay up late with the exercise need of getting up early.  Starting to get very, very nervous about my prospects of completing that 5k in May ... since I haven't done a damned thing this week exercise-wise

Surreal Days

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

I'm having a hard time putting into words what things have been like lately.  I'm both happy and completely, utterly screwed up.  Have gained weight eating like this, not sleeping and not exercising.

Breakfast:  Yogurt

Lunch:  None

Dinner:  2 spicy McChickens

2nd Dinner:  3 Taco bell chicken buritos, chips and onion dip

Got completely carried away, but not terribly surprising after not eating for ~ 11 hours.

Exercise:  None.  Again.  Argh.

Needing Seriousness

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

I haven't checked lately but I'm pretty sure that I'm putting weight back on at an alarming rate what with the awful, awful eating and lack of exercise.  I need to put a stop to it.  No garbage the rest of the day would be a good start.  Not looking promising for exercise later, it is miserable out there.

Breakfast:  2 McDonalds sausage burritos, coffee

Hopefully that's enough mcfood for a while.  I got up super late after another long evening.  In a way I almost wish to have my time be my own again, but instead I need to simply tinker with the schedule, be more efficient at work and enjoy the happy personal stuff.

Lunch:  None

Dinner:  Pizza Hut thin crust pepperoni, bacon, onion pizza

Exercise:  None

Pondering whether I can reboot the C25k program somewhere in the middle - I have just over 6 weeks to regain form and make additional strides, and I'll be gone on vacation and not jogging for a week of that.  Yikes.

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My Word ... The FAIL

Saturday, March 16 - Monday, March 18, 2013

Awful, awful fail.  Some great stuff in personal life, awful amounts of work, bad food and no exercise.

Saturday

Breakfast:  3 egg omelet w/ bacon, cream cheese, avocado; sausage; coffee

Lunch:  Culver's bacon deluxe single, side salad w/ italian

Snack:  Chips and onion dip

Dinner:  Taco bell chicken burritos

Exercise:  Usual walk.

Sunday

Breakfast:  None

Lunches:  2 spicy McChickens, 2 grilled onion cheddar burgers, popcorn

Dinner:  Meatloaf, potatoes, carrots, roll

Snack:  Chips and onion dip

Monday

Breakfast:  Yogurt, coffee

Lunch:  2 spicy McChickens

Dinner:  Dominos pizza, pepperoni, bacon onion.

Snack:  Chips and onion dip, a little popcorn

Notice the lack of exercise?

Fun But Flabby

Friday, March 15, 2013

Having a good stretch in personal life, unfortunately it's been paired with total FAIL with regard to the plan.  I hope to get refocused tomorrow.  Yeesh.

Breakfast:  Yogurt, coffee

At least this part is consistent.

Lunch:  2 spicy McChickens

Snack:  2 spicy McChickens

Dinner:  Deluxe pizza, chips and onion dip

Exercise:  None.  Should have gone, I could have dragged myself out there.  It's supposed to snow tonight so tomorrow morning is looking a little dicey.

A Curious Case of Fog

Thursday, March 14, 2013

I had a very, very difficult time getting out of bed this morning.  In fact, I didn't.  Snoozed repeatedly until I finally had to get up.  Uncomfortable, unproductive sleep.  I attribute some of it to my screwed up schedule - I didn't go to bed until after 12:30 - and some of it to dietary reasons.  Some of it perhaps to the increasingly irregular exercise.  And there is always work-related stress.

Add it up and you get morning brain fog.  It's been a while since I woke up exhausted & with a headache and I'd just as soon not have that happen again any time soon, thanks.

Breakfast:  Yogurt, coffee

Lunch:  3 egg omelet w bacon, cream cheese & avocado; sausage; coffee

Dinner:  3 Taco Bell chicken burritos, chips and onion dip

Exercise:  None.  As mentioned, could not get out of bed.  I don't know if I can get back on schedule - have some other stuff going on in life that is preventing me from going to bed early like I should.

What a Wednesday

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

For reasons which will not be discussed, today is memorable.

Breakfast:  Yogurt, coffee

Lunch:  None

Dinner:  1/2 of a deluxe pizza, salad w/ italian dressing, ~ 24 oz miller lite.

Went out for dinner unexpectedly.  Absolutely one of my favorite meals, even if I do eat way too much and feel a bit lousy afterward b/c of all the starch.

Exercise:  I got up a bit late but did get out and jog.  Slowly.  It was icy, so I was very cautious.  Different route, axed the extra warmup due to time constraints, the pedometer said I covered just under 2 miles in my 30 minutes.  Sounds about right.  I don't have that extra gear yet, though I felt surprisingly decent.

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A Tuesday

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

After a memorable Monday, a more normal Tuesday.  With ample quantities of FAIL.

Breakfast:  Yogurt, coffee

Lunch:  Homemade vegetable beef soup, mini baguette with butter and cheddar cheese

Dinner:  Domino's pizza, pepperoni bacon and onion, a few potato chips

Exercise:  None.

They Flow

Monday, March 11, 2013

The excuses come too easily of late.  I was up past my bedtime.   I'm tired.  It's raining.  I don't feel like it.  And that's just exercise.  Don't even get me started on the food excuses.

Sick of them all.  After today need to get my head back in the game.

Breakfast:  Yogurt.

Lunch:  A late drive thru, 2 grilled onion cheddar and a McChicken.

Dinner:  3 Taco Bell chicken burritos, chips and onion dip

Exercise:  None.  Tired.  Raining.  Could have gone, but had some other things that really needed to be done before I could leave for work.  So I did those instead.  No major regrets, just a bit of irritation - if I was on my usual schedule I had ample time to get it in.

Work And Anticipation

Sunday, March 10, 2013

So jammed up at work.  Spent most of the day there again today and didn't even scratch the surface of what I needed to accomplish.  A big ball of stress right now.

And yet I'm scheduled for a short stretch of time tomorrow that I've been looking forward to so much that has nothing to do with work.  It will be interesting.  And I'm anticipating.

Breakfast:  McDonalds bacon, egg, cheese biscuit, 2 sausage burritos, coffee

Lunch:  Double cheeseburger, fries

Dinner:  Little Caesars pepperoni pizza

Snack:  a few leftover potato chips

Exercise:  None.  All kinds of fail.  Was ready to sleep about 9 last night, was kept up until 1:30.  Lost an hour due to the time change and ... yeah.  While I woke up and moved to the couch at the usual time I had no shot at actually being awake.  I was out again in no time flat.  Brutal.

Plus it was raining.  Yuck.  Going to have to try to jog in the rain in the am it appears.

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So It Continues

Saturday, March 9, 2013

Lots of fail lately.  Just not enough focus.  I'm able to do some things but not everything.

And holy ****, we lose an hour tonight.  Oh man is tomorrow morning going to SUCK.

Breakfast:  Western omelette, homemade wheat toast, coffee

Worst coffee ever.

Lunch:  Italian beef sandwich, chicago dog, fries

Snack:  Popcorn

Dinner:  Deluxe pizza

Snack:  Chips and onion dip

About 10 gazillion calories.  Planning on going out to breakfast tomorrow and I have a ton of work to do, but otherwise I should be able to get back on track.

Exercise:  Walk, usual route.  Pedometer said 3.37 miles in a hour and five minutes.  Sounds about right.  Shorter strides.  Felt good.  Could have easily gone much further.

More Like It

Friday, March 8, 2013

This morning feels more like it should.  I was in bed by 9:30 last night, got to sleep by 10:00, so I actually got a reasonable number of hours.  Not eight hours or anything but certainly better than the maybe 5 if I'm lucky I have been getting.  As a consequence I was able to motivate myself out the door and all is right with the world.

Officially wondering about my scale.  Hopped on this morning and it gave me a lovely low number ... despite my eating pizza last night.

Breakfast:  Yogurt, coffee

Lunch:  3 egg omelet w/ bacon, cream cheese & avocado; sausage; coffee

Might just have to start referring to this as avocado omelet meal.

Dinner:  McChicken, grilled onion cheddar burger, chips & onion dip.

FAIL.

Exercise:  Now that I'm "done" with the C25K program, I'm doing maintenance and hopefully building up some more endurance.  Oh, and I need to work on increasing speed.  Today's plan was 30 minutes of jogging.  I managed to reset the pedometer just before starting that so I got a reading of 2.12 miles in those 30 minutes.  Happy about that for the most part - I got as far as I expected - but have a ways to go to reach my goal.

It didn't hurt too much.  Once I got past the mental block of the first half mile it was pretty much fine.  And - this might be the best part - for once I felt like I could have continued on at the end of the time.  I don't know if I could have done another entire mile but it's possible.  I was not suffering.  Excited about that.

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In Deficit

Thursday, March 7, 2013

Still operating under a massive sleep deficit.  If only I could get back to being in complete control of my schedule.  Yeah, like that's ever going to happen.  And I know that I'd miss out on so much if I had been super strict lately.  Sure would be nice to get caught up, though springing forward is not going to help.

Tons and tons of work to do.

Breakfast:  Yogurt, coffee

Lunch:  Turkey and spicy beans, 2 slices cheddar cheese

Snack:  2 McDonalds grilled onion cheddar burgers, 1 spicy McChicken

Dinner:  Little Caesars hot n ready pepperoni pizza

Exercise:  None.  Snoozed for an hour, got up, never got myself out the door.  Even managed to be 15 minutes later than usual to work.  Quite displeased.

Expectable Resistance

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

I really wish I knew why my head is in such a bad place regarding exercise recently.  I don't get it.  I had been really loving the morning walks and while I haven't 'loved' the jogging experiment it hasn't exactly been painful.  And yet recently I find myself dreading it, at least on jogging days.  That more than anything else (okay, probably except extreme fatigue) leads to missed days.

Breakfast:  Yogurt, coffee

Lunch:  Everything omelet, redskin potatoes, sourdough toast, coffee

Out to lunch.  Literally, not just figuratively.

Dinner:  Leftover roast turkey, spicy beans.

Photo FAIL.

Sorry about the neck-craning that's required, dunno why the iphone rotated it & I'm not in the mood to fix it right now.  Also:  Not sure if I like this better with chicken or turkey, they're both goooood.

Exercise:  Jog day.  Got out there really late, so I dispensed with the usual pre-warmup walk.  Walked for 5 minutes, was supposed to jog for 30.  I quit at about 20 minutes.  I ****ing quit.  No ifs ands or buts, I quit.   Walked the rest of the way home, pedometer said 2.25 miles in 36 minutes.

The quit was 100% mental.  I wasn't hurting.  I fought the desire the whole way, but eventually it won.  I'm mad.  Sad.  Frustrated.  If I'm going to accomplish this goal -- and I've already promised myself that if I do I can go back to walking immediately after -- I need to get my head straight.

This, not to put too fine a point on it ... this sucks.

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The Excuses Need To Stop

Tuesday, March 5, 2013

Tired.  Went to bed by 10:00.  Got up, dozed on the couch.  It was altogether too easy to skip the morning exercise.  Sure, there was a knot in my calf that I was worried about, but I didn't even try to deal with it and get out there.  Fatigue is a powerful thing.

On the plus side, I was notably less puffy by the end of yesterday.  It always nice to get rid of useless water weight.

Breakfast:  Yogurt, coffee

Lunch:  3 egg omelet w/ bacon, cream cheese, avocado; sausage; coffee

Dinner:  Enchilada chicken, spicy beans

Worst photo or worst photo ever?

That's more like it.  Yum.  This could become a regular thing.  Now I just have to decide how to portion the beans more consistently - I'm trying to reduce the focus on them & put it back on the meat.

Exercise:  None.  Was supposed to be a 'run' day, too.  Tomorrow hopefully.

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