Facuet On

Friday, June 19, 2026

Okay, that was odd.  After a rough, low energy day yesterday I grabbed dinner and hit the recliner.  Did absolutely nothing, intentionally.  Got ready for bed early but wasn't sleepy.  And then the faucet kicked on.  I got up four or five times over night to dispose of water, no idea why since I had excessive carbs yesterday.  It was all retained, too, as I only had about 12 oz of water and 12 oz of Gatorade Zero.

But I guess I am not complaining.  Other than preventing fully consecutive sleep, it was not an issue.

Breakfast:  McD BEC biscuit, Egg McMuffin, hash brown, coffee

The last thing I felt like doing this morning was fixing anything.

Lunch:  2 leftover slices of pizza

Instead of eating at lunch I took a nap.  Or at least I tried, with middling success.  Had some pizza left from Wednesday in fridge at work so I had that when I got back.

Also had a snack of a small ice cream cone with a scoop of butter pecan. 

Dinner:  Italian beef, fries

Tasty, zero effort, bad for me.  Let's see if I can go to bed early.

Exercise:  Nope.

120.8 

Overwhelming Flatness

Thursday, June 18, 2026

Sigh.   This morning was a struggle, again.  I woke up as usual about 6:30, cleared some water, and was not otherwise anywhere close to ready to start the day.  I got just under 7 hours at that point and it was not enough.  More concerning is that I have a bit of chest discomfort.  I'm hoping it's just acid since I had pizza last night, but we will see.  Overall, I feel very flat.

Scale predictably up after the toxic mix of flour, soybean oil and fat.  I really need to make a pact with myself that if I am going to eat pizza occasionally it needs to be real pizza, not chain slop.

Breakfast:  Pretzel bagel with veggie cream cheese, coffee

Grease was not appealing this morning. 

Lunch:  Deluxe sub

 

On the road, work.  Was fine.

Dinner:  Taco salad w chorizo

Excessive.  Ate too much.

Exercise:  Nope.  Struggling.  Really discouraged with how I have felt today.

122.4 

Flatness

Wednesday, June 17, 2026

Some days I'm annoyed when the scale is perfectly flat, but today I was amused.  You change assorted variables, do different things, and you end up right where you started.

Obviously I need to make bigger changes in order to break out of this range ... LOWER, of course.  For whatever reason it's proving more difficult than usual.

Nothing else of note.  Slept okay.  Tired this morning, took a personal hour to buy some extra time to get going.  

Breakfast:  Bacon wrap, coffee

 

Again.

Lunch:  2x McDouble, Coke Zero

Not a good morning.  No pep at all, not even to fix a simple burger at home.

Snack:  Pepperoni pizza slices 

Dinner:  Dominos deluxe, bread bites, root beer float

And it got worse.

Exercise:  Nope.  A rainy day.

120.2 

Let's Go Small

Tuesday, June 16, 2026

I think it needs to be tried.  More meals/snacks but each one small.  Still trying to keep within an eating window - if I could get it to 10 hours or less that would be great, but at the moment it's closer to 12.  The hope is to have somewhat more consistent energy.  If that doesn't happen, well, it wouldn't exactly take a lot to abandon it and go back to the usual meals.

Sluggish start, definitely could have used another hour or two to doze.  But okay once going, so far.  Scale was down smartly despite the fact that I felt heavier.  Still in the same range.

Breakfast:  Bacon wrap, coffee

 

Still feels like a sound first meal.  About 400 calories, so it fits the 4-5 smaller meals plan.  A little after 8:30.

Lunch:  Home cheeseburger w guac, Meijer hot dill pickles

 

One patty instead of two.  A little after 12:30.  Looks like about 550 calories.  Again a good size.

Snack:   Leftover brat with jala mustard

 

Unusual to have something of substance on hand.  About 4:30.  About 350 calories

Dinner:  Chef salad with ranch, 12 oz Miller Lite

 

Post-golf.  About 8:00.  It was not their finest effort and I think I'm done with the salad experiment.  Which is unfortunate, there just aren't any good menu choices.  It's a pizza and sandwich joint.  Based on the limited nutrition info that's out there the french dip looks like the best sandwich option.

Grabbed a popcorn on the way home.   

Exercise:  9 holes with cart.  Not a huge amount of extra walking but enough.  Felt fine.  I think having a modest snack worked out.

120.2 

Good No Loss

Monday, June 15, 2026

Some days you can be happy with no drop on the scale.  Today was one of those days.  I truly had no idea what to expect, if I went just straight based on how I felt in the moment I would have guessed up, a little puffy this morning.  Instead it was dead flat.  Given that yesterday was the best I've felt in a while, I'm happy.  Lots of weight to lose but I'm not going to lose it if I can't function.

Sleep was okay.  It was nice to wake up at 1:45 and actually be cold.  I had to grab a blanket.  When you have no functional A/C that's a huge win.  A very pleasant 70 degrees this morning inside and with no hot weather in the 10 day hopefully I can keep it there.

Alright Monday, let's go.

Breakfast:  Bacon wrap, coffee

Different type of bacon this week, I think it's Kentucky Legend applewood.

Lunch:  Home cheeseburger

 

Just the most basic thing, burger, american cheese, jala mustard. 

Dinner:  3 tacos mexican style plus avocado, 12 oz Yuengling

 

Now let's see if the strawberries are still good.

 

They were. 

Exercise:  Nope.  A little disappointed to be low energy/low grade fatigued this evening.  I walked over to get tacos but had no pep, was dragging a bit.  I think I may actually have to try more (smaller) meals/snacks.  Given that life is going to prevent me from going full fat-adapted ever, maybe that'll help.

123.0 

Please Fix

Sunday, June 14, 2026

Not entirely sure what it wrong with me but it would be nice if it would fix itself.

Not much of note.  Was very dozy yesterday.  Slept okay, got about seven hours.  Pretty low energy so far today with some flux.  That's what gets me, I worry about the (human) power outages.  Scale was up, between the slop bowl and being backed up no surprise.  ETA:  Got moving around 8:00 and actually had a pretty good morning.

Breakfast:  Biscuits and gravy, 2 eggs over medium, hash browns, coffee

 

Knew yesterday that I wanted biscuits and gravy and this specific order at a specific cafe was mentally locked in.  Kind of like the root beer float the other night, it just needed to happen.  And it was very, very good.

Lunch:  McDouble, Coke Zero

On the way to golf, did the job.

Dinner:  Brats w MR, chips, salad, 12 oz Miller Lite, strawberry shortcake

 

Sunday dinners.  You have to love local strawberry season. 

Exercise:  18 holes with cart.  Average plus walking, more than I have done in any round lately.  And as a bonus, I felt good.  Honestly writing this just before bed this afternoon is the best I have felt in a while.  I did not struggle at all physically, didn't do anything crazy but all was well.  

123.0 

Disruptions

Saturday, June 13, 2026

My routine, it has been disrupted.  No golf this morning, so I was home when the power went out a little before 8:00.  Doh.  Did nothing in the dark for quite a while.  Finally came back on about 10:30.

Had a very specific craving last night after I posted, so add a root beer float to yesterday's tally.  Not good for me, I've done well to avoid most sugar, but it was a delight.

Scale up this morning.  Since it was dark, I didn't eat right away.  Or at all until the power came on.  Just another disruption.

Breakfast:  Avo oil tortilla chips, avocado salsa

Randomly found the salsa in the fresh case at the store last night, and it turns out they just started carrying Boulder Canyon tortilla chips, so I grabbed both.

Lunch:  CFA chicken nuggets, mac and cheese, cookie

Grad party food.  Didn't eat too much.

Dinner:  Qdoba brisket bowl, 12 oz Yuengling

 

Light rice, light cheese, otherwise the way I usually get it. 

Exercise:  Nope.

121.4 

Things Which Are Stupid

Friday, June 12, 2026

I don't have time to make a comprehensive list of things which are stupid but good lord do so many parts of my life fall into that category.

Anyway.

Scale was interesting after yesterday's failures.  It was ... down?!  And that's despite the system being backed up.  Also probably retaining a little water.  So ... okay.  It's still up from where it was earlier in the week, obviously, and that suggests that I'll have to actually re-lose it, but it still means that yesterday's reading really makes no effing sense.

Sleep was fine.  Was able to get to sleep earlier than I have lately and I didn't have any particularly noteworthy issues.

The main thing which is stupid is me.  I very nearly had a breakthrough.  I had two or three squares of pizza last night, maybe a third of it, noted how good it was and that amount was satisfactory.  A functional person would have stopped there.  I am not a functional person.  It was only a brief pause and then I gave in to the purely psychological need to eat and grabbed another square.  Sigh.  So close.  If I had that control maybe I could eat things like pizza and snacks.  But I don't.  So back to restrictive dieting I must go. 

Breakfast:  Coffee

I was not the least bit hungry.  Which is not surprising. 

Lunch:  Corned beef reuben, dill pickle, Coke Zero

 

First time I've been to the local deli.  It was quite good. 

Dinner:   Cheeseburger, fries w a little ketchup, 12 oz Yuengling

 

Small burger, little fries, still plenty of food from the local 5G knockoff.  They make a very good burger.

Exercise:  Nope.

119.6 

Much Disappointment

Thursday, June 11, 2026

When you are this fat, scale up days are so disappointing, especially when you don't feel like you did anything egregious.  Up almost two pounds today after three flat days.

Let's break down the possibilities.

Possibility one:  Excess calorie consumption.  Yeah, no.  I'm not doing the calculation but there is little chance that I took in much more than 2,500.   

Two, excess carbs:  I was definitely higher than I would like but not crazy high.  Nothing that's going to result in a big gain, which would be water retention.  Getting up at 4:00 to deal with that suggests not likely.  But it could be.  I may just not be able to eat slop bowls even if I minimize the starch.  Next time I go maybe I'll mess around with the nutrition info and really dial in the right combo.  

Three, excess salt:  Again, water retention.  I suppose it's possible and we'll see today, but again, feels less likely.  Seems like I had a gain the last time I had an unwich - processed meats.

Four, system backup.  While true, should only be fractions of a pound, doesn't feel significant.

Five, random bloody chance.  Probably it.  I hate it here.

Anyway, while I had hopes of going to sleep earlier again it did not happen.  Slightly dozy after dinner, but not enough to sleep (thankfully, given that I had not gotten ready for bed), then not at all until after midnight.  Ended up with six plus hours as usual.

Breakfast:  Meijer sausage patty, 2 slices pepper jack, coffee

 

Wrap without wrap.  Since I was going to have to eat at home I decided to skip the wrap and not use up a pan.  Have a few things to catch up on around the house.

Lunch:  Italian beef sandwich

 

Other than the bread, perfectly fine. 

Dinner:  Pepperoni bacon pizza, 12 oz Yuengling

 

A meltdown, but at least a quality, tasty one. 

Exercise:  Nope.  Another factor.  Need to kick it into gear.  Last night wasn't happening due to thunderstorms and tonight looks like the same.

120.0

A Trifecta

Wednesday, June 10, 2026

Interesting only to me, the scale was exactly the same for the third day in a row.  Which is slightly deflating but then again also not that important.

Weird night.  Got home about 9:00, by 10:30 I was nodding off so I got ready for bed.  Was then completely wired for no reason and had not the slightest urge to sleep until well after midnight.  I think I finally forced the issue about 1:00 and slept OK after that.

Finished my massive work project, so hopefully tomorrow will look more normal.

Breakfast:  Bacon wrap, coffee

 

Always good.   

Lunch:  Jimmy Johns vito as an unwich minus oil plus mayo, dill pickle

 

Not the greatest but since I had no time to leave my desk it was the best option I came up with.

Dinner:  Qdoba double chicken bowl, 12 oz Yuengling

 

Wanted something protein heavy and not processed, did the job.  Brisket is better but was good. A bit more than I needed really.  And I'll say it again, if there was a seed-oil free Chipotle/Qdoba knockoff in my town I'd eat there at least three times a week.  Love a good slop bowl.  Actually if there were a Chip or Q in my town (Q is about 15 minutes away), I'd crush it.

Exercise:  Nope.

118.2 

Juggling And Such

Tuesday, June 9, 2026

Multitasking is the theme of the day.  Juggling so many balls at the moment, it's hard to focus on any of them.  But I do have one work project that's elephantine and needs to be done by tomorrow.  So there will be much office time.

Got home last night just before 11, asleep about midnight.  Woke up once to the darned backup beep of a truck - it was extra loud last night - but otherwise straight through to 7.  No complaints.  Have felt fine all day and it's been productive.  We'll see how golf goes tonight.  Scale was flat, which was fine as I did not take the time to deal with system clearance.

Breakfast:  Bacon wrap, coffee

 

Again.  On balance I think I like the bacon fractionally better than the sausage but both are fine.

Lunch:  Leftover brisket reheated in butter, SF BBQ sauce, Meijer hot dill pickles

 

The rest of the grocery store brisket.  It was actually better reheated.  Quite tasty.  It was also very sating, I expected to want a snack before golf but I was never hungry.

Dinner:  Chef salad with ranch, 12 oz Miller Lite

 

Not as good as last week but fine.  I honestly wish I could design my own salad from their ingredient list, just a couple swaps would make this elite.

Exercise:  9 holes with cart.  Some walking but on a flat course. 

118.2 

Down Pleasantly

Monday, June 8, 2026

Another week.  Do not want to but must.

Actually the morning was pretty decent.  Woke up about 5:00 with a toe-curling foot cramp, got that resolved and dozed until the alarm went off.  Not great but okay.  I'm not notably tired.  Had an above average morning in terms of productivity.  Let's see about the rest.

Scale down pleasantly.  Wasn't sure what the impact of last night's bowl would be, but knew that exercise and the other two meals being no carb would help.  Now if I can just fix the energy issue.

Breakfast:  Bacon wrap, coffee

Almost forgot the photo.

Lunch:  2x McDouble plain no buns, Coke Zero

Had five minutes for lunch, ate while driving.  Lucky that there was nobody in line.

Dinner:  3x tacos mexican style, avocado

 

First taco Monday in a minute and a very fine effort by the crew.

Exercise:  Nope.  Long, long workday.

118.2

Need A Third

Sunday, June 7, 2026

I need a third day.  Saturday for fresh air and exercise, Sunday for rest, home chores and hopefully some more fresh air and exercise, and then a third day to do the work stuff I need to do before things ramp back up.  I'd be so much more productive if I had that one day.

Since I don't, life goes on.  I was pleasantly surprised to not be too wiped out yesterday, in fact I didn't really suffer at all from the lack of sleep.  Never even got seriously dozy.  Ended up going to bed a little after 10:30 and woke up briefly in the 5:00 hour but managed to quickly go back to sleep and made it to 7:00 for a total of eight hours.  Lazed about for a long time before getting going too. 

Scale was down smartly, makes up for the prior day.  And I know it's only a tiny thing, but I'm hoping that my appetite is a bit more under control - I was hungry, a bit, when I got up, but not enough to rush into eating things.  I took the time to get cleaned up, then baked the bacon.

Breakfast:  5 strips thick cut bacon

 

Made bacon for the week.  Had an odd number of strips.

Lunch:  Home double cheeseburger, no bun, Meijer hot dill pickle spears

 

Just mustard today, kept it simple.

Dinner:  Qdoba brisket bowl (light rice), leftover SF butterscotch pudding

 

Not what I had planned.

Exercise:  18 holes with cart.  Very disappointed with the energy level.  Was quite tired and easily strained.  It was warm and humid but still, very disappointing.

120.4 

A Store BBQ Score

Saturday, June 6, 2026

Ahh, yes.  Saturday.  Time for some of that fresh air and exercise I don't get during the week.

Another weird night of sleep.  Same story, was not tired, could not get to sleep, it was about 1:00 before I did.  And I knew the alarm was going off at 6:00.  Thankfully it's been an okay day and other than running out of gas on the last hole a bit I have felt fine.  Scale, to my disappointment, was minimum up.  It's not anything close to a big deal, but when you are this fat and you've been on plan, seeing an increase, even one that's a tiny fraction of a pound, is deflating.  We'll see what two days with carby meals does - breakfast today, dinner tomorrow.

Breakfast:  2 eggs over medium, 3 strips bacon, hash browns, raisin toast w jam, coffee

 

The standard.  A very fine effort.

Lunch:  12 oz Miller Lite

Post-golf.  I was not hungry.

Dinner:  Brisket w G Hughes SF bbq sauce

 

Just grocery store brisket but my guy hooked me up, four fat slices for $9.  Easily two meals worth, could be three if I stretched it at all.

 

Had a few celery sticks with some Daisy ranch dip - clean and surprisingly low carb. 

 

And the capper, some SF butterscotch pudding for dessert. 

Exercise:  18 holes with cart.  Not a huge amount of walking but enough.  Pleased to not be more tired.

123.2 

Mostly Noteless

Friday, June 5, 2026

Looking forward to the weekend but need to get through the day first.  Off to a slow start after another screwed up sleep schedule.  Again didn't get to sleep until around 1:00.  Woke up slightly before my alarm at 7:00 but it took a while to get going.

Nothing of note otherwise.  Scale down, system seems to be functioning more or less normally.  Not as much water loss as I might expect but it's still been fairly substantial.  You always wish it could go faster.

Breakfast:  Sausage wrap, coffee

 

Again.  Thought about making a steak wrap instead but did not have time.  I was not hungry when I woke up and if I had full control over my day I probably would not have eaten for a couple hours.

Lunch:  McD 2x McDoubles minus bun, ketchup and mustard.  Coke Zero

I really need a better on the go option but this did do the trick,  No bun consumed, just patties, pickle and onion. 

Dinner:  Leftover steak in butter, ranchero beans, guacamole, a few jalapenos, 12 oz Yuengling

 

I was psychologically hungry but not actually hungry when I got home so it was a good thing that I did not have anything snackable.  I would have eaten way too many nuts or pork rinds.  Leftovers were okay.  Cleaned up a jar of jalas.

Exercise:  Nope.  Mostly level energy today, just one small dip as I was getting home.  Improving, I think, and should be close to ready to walk.

123.0 

What This Again

Thursday, June 4, 2026

The sleeping, it's getting even worse.

Didn't get to sleep until after 1:00.  Wasn't remotely sleepy even then, though I finally conked out.  It appears to be a nice side benefit of an improved diet that I'm not sleepy, but it's wrecking my schedule.  And then I woke up at 2:00 for a truck that visits most nights about that time with an overly loud backup beeper, at 3:45 for a minor foot cramp.  Solved that by throwing on a blanket to warm the legs and managed to sleep until almost 6:00.  The good news is that so far, anyway, I am not overly tired.  Felt okay when I got up, nothing like yesterday.  I'll probably crash later, but we'll see.

Scale down but not as much.  Otherwise today is off to a solid start.

Breakfast:  Sausage wrap, coffee

 

In a hurry.

Lunch:  Double cheeseburger no bun, mustard & jalapenos.  Meijer hot dill spears

 

Out of swiss so I went with pepper jack.

Dinner:  Sirloin steak, Siete refried ranchero beans, 12 oz Yunegling, peanuts

 

 

LOL, I had the peanuts and beer when I got home, then dozed off.  Didn't start making the steak until almost 7:30.  Oops.  Anyway, the steak did the job even if it wasn't great as far as steak goes.  We'll see how the leftovers do.  Liked the beans, ate about 1/3 of the can.

Exercise:  Nope.  I do think I might be improving enough to start with some walking.  If I can go the rest of today and tomorrow without any interludes of feeling like death, it will be time.

124.4

Another Lack Of Conversion

Wednesday, June 3, 2026

No, I don't really want to turn this into a sleep blog, but that's been what's on my mind lately.

Got to sleep about 11:30.  Slept straight through until a few minutes before 6:00.  Great.  Felt decent, disposed of some water, sat back down.  About fifteen minutes later I was ready for more sleep.  Very ready.  So I tried.  And, once again, failed miserably.  I really was sleepy but just could not convert it into actual sleep.  Finally started dozing once we got into it's-past-time-to-get-up snooze time, so I was predictably late getting going.  Feeling okay since, but good grief. 

Scale was down smartly, although it didn't feel like there was extreme water removal there must have been a decent amount. So that's good news.

Breakfast:  Sausage wrap, coffee

 

Again.  Only difference was using Pace sauce instead of fire sauce.

Lunch:  Double cheeseburger no bun, avo oil mayo, olives

 

Again.

Dinner:  Rotisserie chicken, Meijer hot dill spears, 12 oz Yuengling, peanuts

Hit Meijer after work so I wanted something fast.  Which is what I got.   Ate too many peanuts, need to not keep them within reach.

Exercise:  Nope.  I was pleased that I felt better this afternoon - I felt lousy when I left to go back to work after lunch but that passed quickly.

125.8 

You Only Get Six

Tuesday, June 2, 2026

Well, day one was successful.  It was also frustrating.

The eating was better.  I was not hungry.  No notable cravings.  No soda.  By evening I was already feeling better physically, it's amazing what a single day can do when you are in this kind of bad shape.  All good things.  I knocked several things off my to do list, quite a bit more than I usually get done in the evening.

The frustration, once again, was around sleep.  I had plans to go to bed early.  I thought I would need to go to bed early given the fatigue earlier in the day and bad sleep the night before.  Instead, I did not get any kind of after dinner crash and as the hours wound on I just was not sleepy.  Oh I fought it at the very end, but once it got past midnight I was able to shut down.  And when I woke up at six I was predictably not completely rested.  It's been okay once I got going but sheesh.  I can't get enough sleep and even when I take the time to try I can't sleep.  I get six hours and I guess it has to be enough.

 So, anyway, the scale was down nicely, seems like a little water release is underway though nothing too extreme.  On with day two.

Breakfast:  Sausage wrap, coffee

 

Same as yesterday, except with ultra thin cheddar instead of pepper jack.

Lunch:  Bunless double cheeseburger w avo oil mayo and olives

 

Again.  Even better than yesterday.  A bit less mayo, new package of patties, otherwise the same.

Dinner:  Chef salad w ranch, 12 oz Miller Lite, Planters dry roasted lightly salted peanuts.

 

Not sure there is a good Tuesday night solution.   This was one of the better salads I've had, but still, seed oil dressing and my stomach wasn't terribly thrilled.  Stopped and picked up some peanuts to settle things down.

Exercise:  9 holes with cart, some extra walking.  It was a very nice evening.  I would say I felt pretty good about 2/3 or 3/4 of the time and absolutely awful - weak, tired, just bad - the rest.

129.8 

Futility Full Stop

Monday, June 1, 2026

Well that's not how you want to start your week.  Went to sleep around 10:30.  Woke up at 4:45.  Too awake, this is not good.  After a half hour or so I was ready to go back to sleep ... or so I thought.  Instead, what followed was two hours of NOT sleeping.  It was not restful.  At all.  It was just complete futility.

So on that cheerful note, let's have a day.  Hey at least the scale was down.

Going to attempt some dietary changes.  Looks like I need to try some low carbing, while acknowledging that life exists.  If I can follow the 80/20 rule, that means no more than 4 off plan meals - three will be Tuesday dinner, Saturday breakfast and Sunday dinner.  But it remains to be seen how it goes.  One way or another I need to lose some significant weight and it's not going to be exercise driven, at least not right now.  One thing that needs 100% compliance is no regular soda, that's been a problem.

Breakfast:  Sausage wrap, coffee

 

Did not cook up any bacon, so I had one Meijer sausage patty, 2 slices of pepper jack and a packet of fire sauce in an Ole zero net carb wrap.  As usual it did the job.

Lunch:  Bunless double cheeseburger w swiss, avo oil mayo, olives

 

Again, just with no bread or butter.  I was informed that today was national olive day so I decided to make my burger an olive burger.  Also, I need better lighting for my photos, it was better than it looks.

Dinner:  Leftover steak, 2 eggs over medium both cooked in butter, guacamole, 12 oz Yuengling 

 

Not a lot of food.  That's a dinnertime goal. 

 Exercise:  Nope.  On a positive note, while I was exhausted for much of the day, I am feeling better this evening and will even get a couple household chores done.  Hoping to crash early.

134.0